Title: Things Change 2/?
Pairing C and P to become C/P
Rate: Pg-13 for now
Summary: Things are changing on
Voyager and some will never be the
Things Change 2
Harry left Sandrine's about 20 minutes
after he arrived,
disgusted. Everyone was still talking
about the commander and how
upset they were when they heard
he was in sickbay and would probably
be on medical leave for awhile.
Okay the commander was an important
part of the crew. He was well liked,
though Harry was hard pressed
many times to figure out why. Afterall
the commander had given up a
career in Starfleet to go off and
fight a battle that couldn't be
won. He was an outlaw in the eyes
of the Federation and Starfleet. He
killed people, okay they were Cardassians
for the most part but Harry
was sure if he had to, the commander
would have killed Starfleet
officers too. He shook his head
at the stupidity the commander had
shown for not believing that the
Federation did what they had to do.
It never entered Harry's mind that
the Federal had been wrong. The
commander had almost died, yes but
it wouldn't have been the first
time they had lost a member of the
crew. And he didn't die after all,
the doctor and Tom saved his life.
Now Tom owned the commander
twice. Bet Chakotay was going
to just love that one.
Harry thought about his friend had volunteering to assist
the doctor. Tom and the commander
had a bad history together. Sure
over the past year the two men seemed
to be civil to each other but
Harry was sure it was only because
Tom hadn't fucked up in that time
frame. As a matter of fact Tom had
proven himself time and again
since they had gotten stuck but
the commander never seemed to take
that into account, until a year
ago. Maybe Tom was trying to score
brownie points after all. Maybe
Tom figured that if he saved the
commander's life yet again the crew
would change their minds even
more about him. Then Tom would feel
more comfortable around the crew
and he would have a couple of more
friends. Tom wouldn't need Harry
as much then. No Tom would always
need Harry because Harry was the
only one who really knew him. Except
maybe B'Elanna but Tom and
B'Elanna's friendship wasn't as
good as Harry and Tom's. Right Tom
would always need him, Harry was
sure of that.
Harry got ready for bed still trying
to figure out what was
so special about the commander that
made everyone want to fall all
over themselves to help him. He
was just a man after all just like
the rest of them. He sighed to himself
it wasn't important, tomorrow
was his day off and he found out
that Tom had been scheduled off
too. They could hang out together
all day, do something fun, this
section of space was way too boring.
Tomorrow, things would be better
tomorrow. With that confidant thought
in his head Harry went to sleep.
Tom was pulled
out of his sleep by a noise he grabbed his comm
badge and then realized it was his
door. Getting up he threw on his
robe and called for whoever was
there to enter. The doors swished
open and B'Elanna walked in. Turning
to see him half a sleep and
"Oh Tom I am sorry I thought you
would be up."
"It's okay B'El what time is it anyway?"
"0100, I couldn't sleep and I thought
you would be having
trouble too. I will let you go back
"No, it's okay really. The doc gave
me a sedative when we
were done operating on Chakotay
or I probably would still be awake."
He took her arm and led her to the
couch. Sitting Tom put his arm
around her shoulder, feeling her
tremble, he gave her a hug.
"You know he will be okay. The surgery
was a bit rough but he
came through fine." Tom wanted to
reassure his friend that the man
she looked to as a father figure
wasn't going anywhere just yet.
"I know I went to see him for a bit.
I still had his medicine
wheel with me while you and the
doctor were operating. I probably
should have left it while you did
but I just couldn't think straight
at the time." Tears rolled down
her face and Tom held her closer.
"SSHH it's okay. Honestly I am not
sure if it mattered or not
but I couldn't have done anything
with it. One I have no clue what it
does or what I would have to do
to ensure it did whatever. And two I
am sure the doctor wouldn't have
allowed it to be in surgery area
while the operation was going on."
"Honestly it helped me to hold on
to it until the doctor
called I felt a bit more centered,
focused." She wiped her eyes
went to see him afterwards, you were already gone. I
asked Harry to come with me, the
weirdest thing is he seemed to be
put out by coming and hanging out
in sickbay with me. It was like he
thought he had something better
"You know Harry, I am sure it was
just his way of dealing
with what went on. It was pretty
intense you know. Gods when we
walked into the messhall and I saw
Chakotay hit the floor, it was
like everything was in slow motion."
Tom rubbed his hand over his
"I am glad I wasn't there for that.
I am sure I would have
hit the floor next to him. I don't
know what I would do if he died
Tom. Losing him would probably hurt
me more then when my father left.
No, I know it would." She started
to cry again.
"Hey come on now, we have to give
off positive energy so
Chakotay's spirits can surround
him with it. You know that." Handing
her a tissue Tom hugged her again.
"Thanks Tom, you are a good friend,
to me and I think even
Chakotay. Won't that surprise him?'"
"Actually I don't think so now. I
was surprised he was okay
with me helping the doctor. It made
me feel pretty good that he
trusted me like that."
"Tom he trusts you with his life
every day we all do."
"I suppose you are right." Tom shivered
"Yea, I was just remembering how
he looked in the messhall. I
hated that. I reminded me of.."
He couldn't bring himself to say it.
"Reminded you of what Tom?"
"My mom." He whispered. "She had
a heart attack when I was in
the Academy. I was home for the
weekend. I found her. Gods I was
never so scared in my life." Tom
trembled at the memory.
"But she is okay right? She is still
alive isn't she?"
"No she died, a few months later
from complications." A
single tear rolled down Tom's face.
He didn't want to talk about this
"I am sorry Tom, I didn't know."
B'Elanna hugged him tight.
"It's okay B'El, I am over it. Just
seeing Chakotay look that
way earlier brought it all back
"Chakotay will be fine, he is strong."
She was trying to
convince herself as well as Tom.
"Yes he will be just fine. He will
have friends to help him
"Yeah if we can keep him from going
crazy. He isn't one to
sit around much other then when
he is meditating. And he hates having
to depend on others."
"Well he will just have to get over
it. Because he will be
sitting around for a while and he
is going to get help whether he
likes it or not. I for one am going
to make sure he does everything
he is suppose to do to get better."
The conviction and determination
was quite evident. B'Elanna covered
her mouth trying to conceal a
"Look you are tired and I am getting
there too. Let's get
some sleep now. You can stay here.
Take the bed I will sleep on the
"No that isn't necessary. I can make
it back to my quarters.
Thank you Tom for talking to me.
I really do appreciate it." She
hugged him again and kissed him
on the cheek.
"Anytime B'Elanna, you sure you don't
want to stay? I promise
I will keep my hands to myself."
He smiled brightly
"Good Night Tom see you in a few
hours. Call me if there is
any change okay?"
"Sure thing good night B'El, sleep
well and dream sweet." Tom
kissed her on the cheek and then
triggered the door for her to leave.
He turned back and headed of his
bedroom. Silently he prayed he would
handle things better this time.
Tom felt it was a chance to make up
for not being helpful when his mother
went through her illness.
Chakotay found himself in the woods
of his home planet. How
did he get here? Why was he here?
He looked around for his family but
he saw no one. He listened for familiar
sounds that he expected but
what he heard was a constant low
hum. He wanted to stand but he knew
he couldn't, so there he sat waiting.
He wasn't sure what he was
waiting for but wait he did. Sitting
back against the log he found
behind him, he looked around just
enjoying being home. His mind
wandered back to a time when there
was peace all around. No fear of
invasion, no fear of the loss of
life. His father was dead he
remembered now. His home planet
had been devastated in attacked by
the Cardassians. He felt a sadness
come over him remembering the pain
he heard a noise, no a voice, a voice of a person that
shouldn't be here. He turned to
see Kathryn standing off in the
distance and so were B'Elanna and
Tom. Why were they here? He called
out to them but they didn't seem
to hear him. He tried to get up and
go to them but he couldn't. Their
voices came to him louder this time.
"Why isn't he awake? It's been three
days." Kathryn sounded
"I am sorry captain, I don't know.
The doctor said that we
should just let him be. He will
come around when he is ready." Tom
also sounded frustrated but it seemed
to be directed at Kathryn.
"I want to try medicine wheel ritual
again. Maybe I did
something wrong the last time. Maybe
it was because there was
negative energy in the room." B'Elanna
"I can't believe that Harry would
have given off negative
energy B'El. He isn't like that."
Tom defended his friend.
"Well I know what I felt and if I
felt it don't you think
that Chakotay and the spirits did
too?" Chakotay sat up further when
he heard his name. Why were they
worried about him and his spirits?
"B'Elanna I am sure that Mr. Kim's
energy was not meant to be
negative. Everyone deals with grief
and sadness in different ways."
Kathryn tried to reassure the younger
woman but Chakotay saw that it
only infuriated her more.
"I don't mean to be disrespectful
Captain but you didn't see
him that night and you haven't seen
his reaction or attitude the past
couple of days. He seems to have
a problem with all of us worrying
about Chakotay." Now completely
confused Chakotay again tried to get
their attention, but to no avail.
"I won't argue with you B'Elanna
if you want to try again it
will be fine. The doctor said it
would be good for Chakotay to sense
that we are close." With that Kathryn
seemed to fade away.
"B'Elanna I am sure that you are
mistaken about Harry."
"Tom you said so yourself that Harry
got pissed at you
because the day after the surgery
you opted to go to sickbay instead
of joining him on the holodeck."
"Yeah but that doesn't mean he has
a problem with anyone
worrying about Chakotay."
"No? Than tell me why he went off
on Dalby when he
interrupted Harry during lunch yesterday
to ask you how Chakotay
was." B'Elanna was yelling now.
"I can't B'El I don't understand
it myself. Maybe he just
isn't good at dealing with things
like this." Chakotay couldn't make
sense of any of the conversation
and he was just about to give up
listening when he heard.
"Tom, would you help me? I mean maybe
if there are two of us
it will help. Maybe I am not in
the right frame of mind or
"B'Elanna I have no clue about Chakotay's
beliefs or his
customs. I don't know if I would
be a help or a hindrance."
"There is information in the data
base go and read up on it
flyboy and meet me back here in
two hours." She snorted and then she
seemed to fade anyway. Tom walked
a bit closer to where Chakotay was
sitting. Again Chakotay tried to
call out to him but he didn't hear.
"Well Chakotay I guess we are going
to get closer whether
either one of us wants it or not.
I just hope I don't make things
worse for you. Could you wake up
within the next two hours and save
me some embarrassment please?" Tom
faded away as the words sunk in.
'Wake up? I am awake' Chakotay said
to no one. 'Well maybe
I'm not awake. SHIT!' Chakotay leaned
back further on to the log and
started to think. After a few minutes
he realized that he was in the
spirit plain not on his home planet,
like he had originally
thought. 'Took you long enough to
figure that out didn't it old
man'. But why, why was Kathryn.
Tom and B'Elanna there with him?
What was going on?
"You are not well my child." Chakotay
turned to see his
guide, why hadn't he heard her come
up to him?
"You didn't hear me because you are
not really here."
"Please sister I am confused enough
as it is."
"Chakotay you have been quite ill.
You are sleeping, I
believe the doctor called the sleep
"A coma? Why?" he couldn't remember
"Your heart was distressed you needed
"I had a heart attack. I remember
now. Kathryn said they were
going to operate."
"Yes and now everyone is waiting
for you to wake up."
"Okay so how do I do that? I can't
seem to move here."
"Just relax my child. When your friend
comes for you go with
"My friend? Him?"
"Yes the blonde headed one that was
here. He will be here
soon when he comes go with him he
will lead you back."
"Tom? Tom is going to help me back?
He said himself that he
doesn't know what to do. How can
he help me? Why would he help me?"
Again confused and a little frustrated.
"Because he is the one that will
help. Why do you question
"I am sorry sister. I don't mean
to I just.. I am so
"You are forgiven. I do understand.
Just allow Tom to take
you back and be well I will be waiting
here for you." With that she
'Okay so I wait.' Chakotay thought. He closed his eyes and
relaxed. He tried to remember what
had happened. He could remember
deciding he needed time off. He
remembered having lunch with Kathryn
it felt good to be working towards
fixing their friendship again. But
then things got fuzzy, he could
remember pain, immeasurable pain.
After that he can't remember much
of anything until he woke up here.
Trying to calm himself and remember
all that he heard. Chakotay
didn't think that one person's negative
feelings would cause a
Then he thought why would
Harry Kim be giving off negative
feelings about him? He couldn't
think of anything that he had ever
done to make the Ensign not like
him. Chakotay thought he was always
been nice to the young man. Tried
to show interest and encourage
Harry to come up with ways to get
them out of situations. He thought
he had supported him whenever it
was necessary. Maybe he was wrong,
when he got back from wherever he
was he would think further on it.
But for now he was just going to
have to deal with the fact that Tom
Paris was going to be the one who
helped him go back.
Suddenly Chakotay heard a noise above
him, he looked up and
saw a bird. No it was an eagle.
Strange he had never seen that before
in his vision quests but then again
this wasn't and ordinary vision
quest. He sat up and watched the
eagle it was circling above him. It
was as if she was letting someone
know where he was. He looked around
the woods, he thought he heard another
noise, like someone stepping
He tried to stand again but he couldn't.
He wondered if he could get
whoever was waling to hear him.
"Hello?" he called out "Who is there?"
"Chakotay?" It was Tom "Chakotay
can you hear me?" His voice
sounded what? Unsure?
"TOM! Over here!" Chakotay tried
to stand but still couldn't.
"Chakotay? Where are you? I can't
"Tom come to the east."
"Just keep talking."
"How did you get here? Keep coming
to the east. You sound
like you are getting closer."
"How in hell would you know that?"
"Well you don't exactly have the
lightest step Lieutenant. I
can hear you crunching along." He
"Yea well you can teach me how to
step lighter some other
time." With that Tom came out into
the clearing where Chakotay was
"Geez Chief I gotta tell you, you
are one difficult patient."
Tom came and sat down next to Chakotay.
"Hey you were here earlier and I
tried to get your attention
you aren't most attentive medic
"This is my first trip to wherever
we are Chief." Tom seemed
"Oh right it was my vision you weren't
here before sorry."
"Well I have to tell you I am glad
that my thinking to
following that eagle was right.
Though that damn wolf I saw scared
the hell out of me."
"That damn wolf is my spirit guide."
"And I am guessing that the
eagle is yours."
"Oh Shit! I hope I didn't upset anything
by seeing your guide
"No you didn't she wanted you to
see her. She was helping."
"Helping? Is that what that was?
I have to admit I ran like
hell in the opposite direction I
was going when I saw her." Tom
leaned back against the log and
breathed a sigh of relief.
"When you went in the opposite direction
did you keep going
"Yeah until I heard you."
"Then she was helping. She had you
turn around." He grinned.
"I guess you are right but still
I don't think I have ever
been so scared. Thinking I was going
to be eaten alive in my dream by
some wolf." Chakotay laughed.
"She wouldn't have harmed you. Maybe
just knocked you down
and pointed you in the right direction
if you didn't listen."
"Oh that's a comforting thought.
I would have had a heart
attack.." OH Shit sorry Chakotay."
"For making light of what you have
"Tom, relax, it's okay."
"So you think the eagle was my guide?"
"Yes I do, I am not sure why but
"Wow that is pretty cool. An eagle
huh? Guess it would make
some sense I do love to fly." Tom
turned and smiled at Chakotay. When
he looked back in front of him he
saw the eagle sitting on the back
of the wolf that had scared him
"Hey they look like they are friends."
"Of course we are friends. Are you
and Chakotay not friends?"
the wolf seemed a bit perturbed.
"Yes we are friends." Tom was frightened
that he had upset
the wolf. He still wasn't completely
sure she didn't want to eat him
or at least take a bit out of him.
"Do not fear Thomas I don't want
to bite you. NOW!" Chakotay
laughed at his guide.
"Sister you shouldn't scare him he
might not stick around to
"Oh believe me I am not going anywhere
unless you come with
me Chakotay. Though I am still not
sure how I got here."
"Well what do you remember?" The
eagle asked this.
"I was sitting on my bed, I was reading
a padd about the
usage of the medicine wheel. B'Elanna
had asked me to help her. She
thought maybe she did something
wrong or because of bad energy she
swears Harry was giving off."
"I know I heard" Chakotay frown at
the memory of B'Elanna
accusing Harry of having a problem
with him, no with others worrying
"You did? How?" Tom was surprised
"Yes I told you that you were here
before remember? You,
Kathryn and B'Elanna, I could hear
but you couldn't hear me"
"I am sorry Chakotay. You shouldn't
have heard that."
"Tom it isn't your fault. You didn't
know. Besides if Harry
is having a problem of some kind
I would probably figure it out
"Chakotay I don't know if Harry has
a problem with you. I
think he just hasn't had to deal
with people close to him being ill.
Not like you have been."
"Could be. So how do we get out of
here?" Chakotay looked at
the two guides. He noticed that
they were both "shaking" their heads.
He had a feeling they were disagreeing
with Tom's assessment of
Harry's reactions but he didn't
"Tom take Chakotay's hand." The wolf
directed and he did so.
"Now Chakotay relax. Tom when you
have a dream you want to
come out of what do you do?" The
eagle questioned him but he had a
feeling she already knew the answer.
"Usually I "force" myself to wake
"No need to force anything here.
Just think about waking up
but include Chakotay in your thoughts.
Tell your mind to wake up,
tell Chakotay's mind to wake up.
Chakotay hold Tom's hand it might be
a bit strange because Tom is the
one in control here. Don't fight
him." The eagle instructed.
Tom closed his eyes and began talking
to himself 'wake up
Tommy boy, Chief wake up.' He said
it over and over again. At one
point he felt like he was being
pulled back 'Chakotay don't fight me'
He called out in his mind. He could
feel Chakotay there in the
distance. 'Remember what the eagle
said let me be in control here you
can do that for a couple of minutes
can't you?' Tom felt the pull
disappear so he began his mental
talk again. It seemed like it took
forever but than again it felt like
no time at all.
"Tom! Wake up!" He heard B'Elanna
"Tom get up come on we have
to get to sickbay. I want to do this as
quickly as possible."
"B'Elanna? I am back?"
"Back? You didn't go anywhere except
to sleep." Tom jumped
off the bed and grabbed his comm
badge that was on his dresser.
"Paris to the Doctor"
"Yes Mr. Paris?"
"Is Chakotay awake?"
"I am in my office. Why would you
think he was awake?"
"Could you go and check please? B'Elanna
and I are on our
"Of course Mr. Paris. Though I am
not sure why you would
think the commander has woken up."
"Just check Doc okay?" Tom said again
as he and B'Elanna left
his quarters and made their way
to the lift.
"Sickbay to Mr. Paris."
"It would seem that the commander
is coming out of his coma.
How did you know that?" B'Elanna
looked at Tom as if she wanted to
ask the same question.
"I will explain when I get there.
Can you contact the
"Certainly Mr. Paris, sickbay out."
"Tom?" B'Elanna was confused. "How
did you know?"
"I will explain I promise B'El when
we get there." They
walked down the corridor in silently.
Arriving at sickbay at the same
time the captain did.
"Captain were you waiting outside
the doors?" Tom laughed
"No actually I was in the Observation
lounge on this deck,
Tom. Just thinking."
"Oh okay. Well let's go in and see
if Chakotay wakes up now."
The three of them walked into sickbay
to find the doctor standing
over Chakotay running a diagnostic
"Ah good you are all here. It would
seem that Commander
Chakotay is out of his coma and
is now sleeping."