Starting Over 4/?
Pairing all except C/P are implied
Major Character death: In the beginning.
Rated R for language and an ass kicking
It is too long? Too much chatter? Too slow moving?
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I borrowed the names of Chakotay's
brothers and sisters from
Starting Over Part 4
In the days that followed Chakotay
spent his time making
"Tay you really shouldn't worry about these things. I am sure Tom will be able to help you move anything that might cause his daughter harm." She was completely exacerbated with him.
"I know momma but I just want everything
to be perfect. It isn't everyday I have company especially company that
is going to be
"Tay just admit that it is only because of who it is that you are going crazy."
"Do you think your mother is so slow that she couldn't figure out that you are in love with Tom?" shaking her head in amusement.
"Momma please don't say something like that out loud."
"Why are you so afraid to let your feelings be known? I know it isn't because you think your love isn't the right kind of love. Your father and I raised you better than that."
"No that is not why. Tom doesn't
know how I feel and I don't
"For spirits sake Tay why not?"
"Momma for many reasons. First and
foremost he lost his wife
"And you know this how?"
"I just do momma, now please drop it and don't say anything to anyone. I don't need anyone scaring the hell out of him. He has to come to the decision to stay or go on his own."
"I think you are being silly my son. I think anyone, man or woman would be truly blessed to have you love them. But I will say nothing more." `For now' she added to herself.
"Thank you now will you help me with this food or not?"
"Of course, you know I always will help you." Maria stood on her toes and kissed her youngest son on the cheek. Then set about getting lunch ready for his guests.
At exactly 1300 hundred hours Chakotay
heard the hover car stop in
Maria followed Chakotay out to greet
the Paris family. The first to
"Mrs. Paris it's a pleasure to see
you again." Chakotay
"It's Miriam Chakotay." He laughed and nodded his acceptance.
"Miriam this is my mother Maria.
Momma this is Tom's mother
The two ladies shook hands and then
hugged each other.
"None of it is true." She answered back.
Chakotay walked around the car to
greet Tom and help him with Miral.
"I am glad to be here Cha." Tom pulled him into a hug. And whispered "I have missed you." Chakotay smiled.
"I have missed you too." Chakotay opened the backdoor and took Miral out of her seat.
"Hello pumpkin.' He said as he kissed her forehead.
"Cha! Me gonna stay wif ou."
"Yes that's right pumpkin you are going to stay with me for a couple of days."
"NO! gonna stay for good. Daddy said."
"Miral I said that maybe we would stay near Tay not with him."
"Wanna stay with Cha!" She hugged Chakotay's neck so tight that he began to choke.
"Sweetie you are hurting Chakotay, let go." Tom pried her arms off from around his neck.
"Sorry Cha she doesn't know her own strength yet."
Chakotay coughed as he gulped in
air and laughed at the same time.
"Right this way, I will show you
to your rooms and you can put you stuff in and then we can have lunch.
You haven't eaten yet have
"No we haven't had lunch yet and
I am sure that Miral is hungry."
"Cha you didn't have to get all this stuff for Miral."
Looking around there was stuffed animals and toys everywhere.
"It was no trouble honestly, My sister Layla and sister-in-law Chandra gave me everything. It is all stuff their children have outgrown." Chakotay was pleased that he had surprised Tom. Miral pushed her way out of her father's arms and slid down his body.
"Wanna play now daddy."
"How about we change you and have lunch then you can play."
She didn't look too happy about that
idea but she didn't fight Tom
"Chakotay this is a wonderful room. Thank you for making me feel so welcome."
"You are welcome, it really wasn't any trouble." Maria said something quietly that Chakotay didn't catch but obviously Miriam did because both women started to laugh. Chakotay just shook his head.
"Well lunch is ready whenever you are Miriam. Would you like to freshen up first?"
"Yes I would I will be out in a minute thank you." Miriam headed for the bathroom as Tom came out of Miral's room carrying her.
Maria waited for Miriam while the men and child went off to the kitchen.
"Cha this is a really nice home."
Once they arrived in the kitchen Chakotay had pulled out the highchair he got from his sister in law and Tom placed Miral in it. Tom then sat at the table and looked around. He was impressed with how comfortable Chakotay's home made him feel.
He could get use to being here. He
really wished he could stay for
Chakotay watched Tom, as he became
deeper in thought. He noticed Tom wasn't frowning but he wasn't smiling
either. Perhaps he didn't
Come to think of it Tom never did
actually say he was against same
"Tay are you with us?" Chakotay jumped when he heard his mother call him.
"Sorry I guess my old mind just went wandering." He couldn't do anything but smile at the three adults now staring at him.
"Wandering to a good place I hope."
Tom smiled back and Chakotay felt himself blush. Tom noticed too. `hmmm
wonder where he was.'
Chakotay went about serving lunch
and making sure everyone had all
"Tay why don't you show Tom around the property while Miriam and I clean up the dishes we will get Miral down for her nap."
"Yes Tom go get some fresh air it just might help clear your mind."
Chakotay and Tom left their mothers
huddled together cooing over
"So Cha you want to tell me where your mind wandered off to in the kitchen?"
Chakotay felt himself blush again
but he figured what the hell.
"What made you think of them?"
"Oh I am not really sure, I guess
I was just wondering how they are doing. Greg and Gerry are here on Dorvan
but I don't see
"Yea that sucked but it was good for Donna, she really loves Sam. I know she would have been miserable if they didn't stay together. Do relationships like that bother you Cha?"
"What same sex relationships?" Tom nodded.
"No not at all. My people believe that the soul of the person is what you should love not the body it comes in."
"I didn't know that. I know my father
use to freak whenever he saw a same sex couple. Boy would he go on and
on about it. Made us kids afraid to have friends that were the same sex.
We were afraid he
"I am really sorry to hear that Tom.
But do you know how stupid
"Yes I know but that is the way my father thought."
"Do you think that way Tom? I didn't
think you did you were friends
"Hell no! I figure that as long as
you love someone and they love
"I didn't think it bothered you but
we never actually discussed it
"No we haven't. I guess it just never
came up. Can I ask you
"You can ask me anything you want Tom."
"Have you ever had a male lover?"
Tom asked sheepishly. He
"As a matter of fact I have when
I was in the academy my roommate
"Can I ask you the same question Tom?"
"UMM No I haven't."
"Was it because you weren't interested or you never found the right one?" Chakotay whispered a silent prayer it was the latter and not the former.
"Cha if I answer that you have to
swear never to repeat it in front
"Tom I would never betray a confidence not ever."
"I know you wouldn't but I have never
admitted this to anyone before. I have been attracted to couple men but
I was afraid my father would
"Your secret is safe with me Tom
I promise." Chakotay couldn't help
Tom shook off the negative feeling
he got and just admired the view.
"I am glad you feel that way Tom. If you get the job and decide to take it, it will help that you like where you are living."
"I have decided already that if I get to be a pilot for Dorvan I am taking it. I don't want to stay on earth anymore. Not when there is always a chance of running into my father. I would rather pretend he doesn't exist anymore."
"You know I don't think I have ever told you how amazing I think you are. For all the crap you put up with growing up, to end up being the man you are just amazes me."
"You didn't always think so. But that's okay because at the time, I wasn't much of anything. Being stuck in the Delta Quadrant helped me in more ways than I care to count."
"I think that even if you didn't end up there you would have turned out just the way you are now."
"I can't agree with you on that one
Chakotay. For one thing I would only be getting out of prison now. That
is if I survived my stay. I probably would have gone back to drinking and
getting by however I could." Tom laughed "bet no one can say that being
"Oh I don't know Tom I can think of a few others who would agree with you. Think about the people who would have never met their life partners, if they hadn't been thrown together. Donna and Samantha are a good example of that. They wouldn't be together and I believe that if Greg and Gerron hadn't been given that time they wouldn't have gotten together either. Think about it, if the Caretaker hadn't caught us most likely all of the Maquis in my cell would have been killed or captured. And if we weren't I believe most of us would have ended up too bitter to want to feel anything good."
Tom shivered at the thought of Chakotay
or any of the Maquis dying
"Well thank goodness it didn't work out that way. I would have never met B'Elanna or Harry. And you and I would never have become friends."
"Than we both have something to be
quite happy about, because
"I feel the same way, Cha."
Chakotay had to fight the urge to
kiss Tom as they hugged. Oh this
"We should be getting back, I am
sure my entire family has
"I am sure she can handle herself.'
Tom laughed as they turned back in the direction of Chakotay's house. When
they arrived there Chakotay was proven right everyone of his family was
Dinner was a major production, all
the women invaded Chakotay's
Chakotay watched Tom out of the corner
of his eye. He seemed to be
"You know if you want him why don't you just tell him?"
Chakotay jumped about startled out of his thoughts.
"And what makes you think I want him brat?"
"Because if the look on your face
says anything, it says you want to jump him here and now. I have seen that
look before, although
"Why hide it? Besides I don't think
anyone else noticed." She wasn't going to tell him that Tom's mother had
been watching him the
"Why hide it? Oh I don't know maybe
because if he knows he
"You know for such an intelligent man you can be completely stupid sometimes Tay. If Tom isn't attracted to you then I will give up my membership to the interspacial coffee lover's group. And you know how much that means to me."
"I think you bumped your head on
the way over here Khola, Tom
"What makes you so sure?"
"Well for one, I am too old for him, two we are friends and nothing more and three he prefers women over men. He said so himself."
"HMM I think you misunderstood him or he doesn't realize it but I am telling you that Tom Paris is attracted to you."
"This conversation is over and will not be repeated do you understand me young lady?" Khola laughed at him "Like I am afraid of you. Please Tay don't kid yourself. I am only of the few that you can not intimidate. But I love you anyway."
"Thanks Khola I love you too."
By the end of the evening Tom not
only had plans with Jamal for
"Tay tomorrow we will have a picnic out in the grove with all this food you have no one will go hungry."
"That sounds like a wonderful idea." Miriam added, "I didn't get the chance to explore your homestead."
"Well than consider it done tomorrow." Maria answered.
"Well I will say my good nights." Miriam and Maria hugged good night, and for the second time that day Miriam surprised Chakotay by hugging him too.
"Good Night Chakotay and thank you
for making me and my son
"Good Night Miriam and you are welcome."
Chakotay hugged her
"I just wanted to say good night Tom. I hope you enjoyed yourself today."
"Oh I did Cha your family is great!"
"Yea they have their good points."
Chakotay smiled "Well good
"Good Night Cha, sleep well, dream sweet."
Chakotay went to his room took off
his clothes and though usually he
Once again Tom felt asleep with `Good
Night Beauty' on his lips but