Starting Over 5/?
Major Character death: In the beginning.
Rated R for implied m/m sex (yes finally the boys get together)
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Starting Over Part 5
found everyone once again gathered outside Chakotay's
Miral was once
again swept up by Chakotay's nieces and nephews
"Tom," she started as she sat next
to him "you know that I
"Of course I do mom and I love you very much too."
"And you know that your happiness is one of the most important things to me."
"I know mom." Tom not sure where his mother was going with this conversation.
"Then I want you to know that I know and it's okay."
"You know what mom?"
"I know you have feeling for Chakotay and I am okay with that. Actually I am more than okay with it."
"Of course I have feeling for him mom he is my closest friend. I am glad you like him."
"Tom, I am not trying to shock you are anything. But I know that you are bisexual and I know that what you feel for Chakotay is more then just friendship. I know that you love him "
"Mom, what are you saying? Are you telling me that you don't have a problem with me being attracted to a man?" His mother nodded "But dad."
"Dad isn't here and he doesn't matter to us anymore Tom. I never agreed with his ideals on who we should and shouldn't love, but I knew better than to argue with him. What I am telling you son is to grab on to the happiness and hold on to it tight. I believe that your happiness is sitting right under that tree." Pointing discreetly to Chakotay.
"Mom, thank you but Chakotay doesn't want to be with me. Remember you told me he was holding out hope for an old crew member."
"Yes I remember Tom that old crew member is YOU!"
"No mom, I think you are mistaken. It's one of the Maquis."
"No Tom I am not mistaken it is you.
If I didn't believe it before I do now, just by watching his reactions
to you. Then there is the conversation I had with Maria yesterday." As
if on cue, Maria sat
"Tom, I know you will make my Tay very happy and he you. He does care about you very much. All you have to do is pay attention to his actions."
was beyond speaking, not only did he mother know he was
Chakotay felt that someone was looking at him so he turned and saw Tom staring at him. When Tom realized that Chakotay was looking back he smiled at him and blushed. Chakotay smiled back and felt himself blush also. Nayib laughed at his younger brother.
"It looks good on you Tay."
"Love" with that parting shot Nayib
walked away. Chakotay sat under the tree not sure if the whole world had
figured him out when a
"Would you like to take a walk with me?" Tom held out his hand to help Chakotay up.
"Sure" he grabbed the offered hand
and stood. Wiping off the
They walked for a bit getting
further and further away from the
"Is there something wrong Tom?"
"UMM, no not really. Just trying to figure out how to say this without you freaking out." Chakotay felt his heart plummeted Tom wasn't going to stay was the first thought that came into his mind. He has figured out that I am attracted to him and he doesn't want to be around me.
"Just say whatever is on you mind Tom. I promise I will try my best not to "freak out'."
"Okay here goes." Taking a deep breath
"Over the past couple of weeks I have been thinking about something that
hasn't come to
"What is it Tom? What have you been thinking about?" So his greatest fear hasn't been realized, just yet.
"Remember yesterday when I told you that I have been attracted to one or two men over the years?"
"Yes." Chakotay heard his heart pounded
and prayed that Tom
"One of those men was.. Is you Cha."
Tom spoke the last part
"You were.. are attracted to me?"
"Yes. I know that you are interested in a man. I don't expect you to do or feel anything toward me in return. But I thought I should tell you before I do something stupid." Tom was shaking, Chakotay put his hand on Tom's cheek.
"I am very interested in one man
in particular, have been for
"That man is you Tom. I been attracted
to YOU for more years
"Me? You have been attracted to me?
For years? Why didn't you
"Many reasons Tom. One we didn't
always get along or like
"Oh My. Do that again." Tom whispered
"If I had known you could kiss like that I would have done this years ago."
"Hell if I had known YOU could kiss like that I would have done this years ago."
"So Tom can I kiss you again?"
"PLEASE!" and they did. They kissed and explored each other for a long time. When finally Chakotay stood up and grabbed Tom's hand.
"We have to go back to the picnic."
"Because I am sure they have realized we are missing by now."
"Trust me out mothers will stop any attempt of a search."
"WHAT?" Tom laughed at Chakotay's horrified expression.
"I had a chat with our mothers before I came and asked you to go for a walk. They both gave me their blessing and told me to pass it on to you. I am sure that they have figured out why we are gone and they will stop anyone from coming to look for us." Tom grinned. "So again why do we have to go back just now?"
"Well if you like I can make love to you in the grass but this old body really prefers a bed for that." Chakotay answered as he places kisses down Tom's jaw and across his neck.
"Oh, well in that case you had better
stop what you are doing now. If you don't we will never it make home."
Chakotay stopped his assault on Tom's neck took his hand and began walking
back toward the
"What's wrong Tom?"
"Cha, I really do want to make love with you but my mother is going to be in the house with us. I am not sure I can do anything with her in the next room."
"Tom, we don't have to do anything if you don't want to but I want you in my bed starting tonight. If you would rather wait until your mother is use to the idea of us being together we will."
"No you don't understand. I can't have sex with my mother under the same roof EVER. I feel like I am disrespecting her."
"HMM then we may have a problem because unless your mother plans on getting her own place we will never have the chance to make love. Or you have to get over your fear."
"I will work on it, I promise. But just for tonight can all we do is sleep? I really do want to make love to you but I don't think I can."
"Of course Tom I promise to keep my hands to myself."
"Gods no don't do that! Just keep it to your hands and lots of kisses." Tom smiled and kissed Chakotay. They began walking again."
When they finally reached
the houses, all the adults stopped what
"I knew things would work out."
"Yes momma and thank you."
"You are welcome Tay I just want you to be happy."
"I am momma I am." Tom came and sat
down next to Chakotay
"Tom Cha I wanted to let you know
that Maria and I have spoken at length and we think it would best if I
were to stay with
"Miriam you don't have to leave"
"Actually I do Chakotay. My son has this strange way of thinking. He seems to think that if he was to. Umm. Do more than sleep with someone while I am in the house he would be showing disrespect for me." Looking at her son's horrified face she snickered. "B'Elanna told me of your "problem" about a week after you got home. So I think it would better for both of YOU if I move in with Maria."
"MOM! I can't believe you just said that."
"Well it's true and you know it. And I am sure that you have already told Chakotay. I could not in all good conscious stay with you knowing that both of you would be depriving yourselves of something that comes natural. Besides while talking to Maria we both discovered that as much as we like our freedom we prefer to have someone to talk to at night when the day is done. Maria is alone and if you two are going to be together I would want you to have your privacy and me mine. I would look for a place of my own. This way neither one of us will be alone. You two can have the privacy you need and we will be close by to help with Miral."
Both men could do nothing
but agree they both wanted to do more
"What do you say we call it a night? I think our plans for this evening have been changed back to the original ones." Chakotay whispered in Tom's ear then preceded to remind him of exactly what he had in mind of the next couple of hours. Tom merely nodded his agreement. They both stood up wrapped their arms around each other saying good night to everything they walked inside and into their bedroom.
Sunday came and went with very little activity outside Chakotay's home. Layla kept Miral for the day and that evening she took her over to her mother's where another crib was set up. No one had the heart to disturb Chakotay and Tom. Everyone knew that they needed some time to be alone to talk things.
Laughter could be heard coming
from the house at various times
Monday morning at 0900 hours Tom
arrived at the shuttle port
"I got the job Cha!" He jumped in Chakotay's lap nearly knocking the teacup out of the older man's hand.
"That's great babe. I told you that there was nothing to worry about." Chakotay kissed him in congratulations. Miral laughed at the two men.
"Cha, daddy funny."
"Daddy's funny is he?" Tom turned to Miral and tickled her chin. "Miral you and I are going to stay with Cha for good. Would you like that?"
"Stay Cha yes! Me like that. Me love Cha!"
"Yeah me love Cha too honey." He
kissed his daughter and then
"So are you working today Cha?"
"No I don't have to be back until tomorrow. We work four days on then three days off every other month. Next month I will work five on two off."
"Okay so what are your plans for the day?" Tom shifted himself in Chakotay's lap causing friction against the older man's arousal. Chakotay moaned and kissed Tom.
"Not what you seem to be planning.
Actually I am supposed to help Nay and Chandra move a few things this morning.
And this afternoon you have plans with Jamal to go hiking." Tom pouted
for a second.
Chakotay moaned again and grabbed
Tom. Kissing him passionately for a quick minute and then unceremoniously
pushing him off his lap.
"Why not? It's not like she hasn't since me kiss anyone before."
"Well she was a little younger then and probably wasn't paying attention but right now she is staring at me like I grew another head." Tom chuckled.
"You did but she can't see it." He grinned.
"Spirits help me I have a monster on my hands."
"Nope no monster. Just someone who loves you with all his heart and wants to be with you always." It was the first time Tom openly admitted that he loved Chakotay and Chakotay felt tears of joy fill his eyes.
"Oh Tom I love you too. I have for a long time."
"We have a lot of time to make up for Cha. I don't want to waste anymore."
"Babe we aren't going to waste anything but we also can't spend all of our time in bed."
Chakotay just shook his head and cleaned up Miral. He took her out of the highchair and handed her to Tom.
"Go change pumpkin while I clean up in here. There is something I would like to talk to you about before I go to Nayib's."
"Okay I will be right back." Tom
walked out of the kitchen as Chakotay went about cleaning it up. When he
finished he went into the
"What's up?" He asked as he placed Miral on the floor.
"I have been thinking, since we are
together now I would like
"Oh Cha!" Tom couldn't say anything
else. He couldn't believe
"I mean if something were happen
to you and your mother, gods
"Thank you Chakotay! For loving Miral and me that much, I would love it if you adopted her. We can look into it later on today. I am actually going to call my sister and ask her to pack up the house for me. We can go back to earth the next three days you are off and collect everything and sign whatever papers are needed." Tom rained kissed all over Chakotay's face whispering I love you over and over again. I love you too was whispered back. Chakotay held on to him and accepted the kissing bath for a minute then he stopped him.
"Alright now that that is settled I am going to go to Nay's and you are going to make whatever calls you need to. Also I think you should tell your mother that we will be going back to earth on Sunday. I am sure that she will want to get her things also."
"Sure thing Cha." Getting up Tom bend and picked up Miral.
"Come sweetie let's go and see grandma."
Walking towards the door
"Yes and see granny too." He kissed Chakotay good bye and went next door.
One month later Tom was flying day
runs back and forth to Trebus picking up supplies three times a week and
two days a week he flew people to neighboring planets. He was always home
"Well it took you long enough Thomas,
yes you know me. I am a
Tom's back had stiffened at the mention
of his father and the
"I am doing really well sir thank you. How is your wife and family?"
"Everyone is well thank you. I wonder why Owen didn't tell me you were on Dorvan when I told him I was going to be here for the week."
"I am sure he doesn't know sir. He and I don't speak anymore."
"Oh I guess since your mother and he divorced it would be hard for you to get in the middle. How is your mother? Is she well?"
"Yes sir she is quite well and seemingly content."
"Well I am glad she is holding up okay. I have to tell you I was quite surprised when I heard they had divorced. I always thought they were the perfect couple."
"Yes I suppose but things and people
do change." Tom stated
"You are right. Please tell her I said hello and perhaps I will see you on my return trip to Trebus." Robert Atwell got up from his seat and left the shuttle. Tom slumped in the pilot's seat. "SHIT! SHIT! SHIT! Guess I had better let mom know as soon as possible." Tom left the shuttle and asked Wilco if it was possible for someone else to do the post flight checks there was an emergency at home he was needed. It wasn't exactly a lie. There would be an emergency as soon as he got there. Wilco got one of the other pilots to return a favor. Tom was always willing to help out the other pilots doing their preflight and post flight checks for them if they were running late and needed to get home.
Tom got in his hovercar
and flew home as quickly as he could. He
Chakotay joked "Why are you pregnant?"
Tom just scrawled at him and Chakotay realized that Tom was quite upset.
He called out to Khola and asked her to stay with the children. He and
Tom went to our mothers' house. Chakotay knocked and then walked in. Finding
Maria in the living room he explained that Tom had to speak to Miriam.
Tom went and got his mother from the kitchen brought her in the living
"Mom dad is going to find out where
we are within the next four days."
"Today I picked up a passenger on Trebus and brought him here. It was Robert Atwell. I am sorry mom the name really didn't register with me I would have never accepted the run if I had realized."
"Tom honey you couldn't have known and besides you can't refuse runs just because your father might find out where we are. We knew there was a chance he would and we will just go on with our lives until such time as we have to deal with him."
Miriam took her son's hand and squeezed it.
"Tom I really wouldn't worry about it I am sure your father has better things to do with his time than come here and bother your mother or you." Chakotay tired to console and comfort him.
"Cha I hope you are right." Leaning
into Chakotay's embrace he shuddered at the idea of his father coming here
and ruining his life.
The four adults talked
for a while trying to calm Tom down.
contacted Kathryn to let her know that there
off with a promise to speak again soon. Chakotay got
While Chakotay showered he
prayed that the admiral did not cause
The best he could hope for
was to warn Tom that things would come
It turned out the predicted
four days ended up to be fourteen.
The communiqué stated that Starfleet required an address to send him his pension and deposit from the house he had rented through them. Tom knew it came from his father because he had already received the deposit when he turned over the key and the final departure document. His pension was supposed to be place in trust for Miral along with B'Elanna's. He didn't want anything from them but believe his daughter had a right to be compensated for the loss of her mother in the years to come. He thanked Wilco for letting him know and told him to send whatever Starfleet requested.
he told Chakotay what Wilco told him. Chakotay knew about the deposit and
the pensions, he agreed that the admiral was
Tom and Miriam were
served with papers claiming alienation of
A Demand was made that payment
was to be rendered in full with two days or Tom would be arrested. As for
the alienation of affection
"Who the fuck is he trying to kid? Quality time with a child? Not as long as there is breath in that bastard's body! He wouldn't know how to spend quality time with anyone under the age of thirty and even then it would a rough call." Chakotay took hold of him.
"Tom remember that Miral is my daughter also now. I can refuse the visitation without any repercussions on either of you."
"Cha he will find away around it. You know that and I know that."
"Trust me Tom, he can try but that is all he can do. He will find he has no power over me. Nor can he force me to turn my daughter over to him. We will fight the repayment demand. I have a friend in Starfleet legal that will help us. You were underage at the time I don't believe any court will hold you to that agreement."
"Let's hope you are right Cha because if I know my father and I do, I will be spending the next 2 years if not more in prison. I don't have the credits he is demanding."
"Tom I will give them to you. I have it and than some."
Miriam was kneeling in front of her
son. "We will not let him win."