Summary:
In answer to Isa's challenge on Jupiter Station. Less
than 36 hours
after Voyager's return to the Alpha quadrant, Tom
vanishes.
Why? Was he alone? Does anybody know anything about
it?
Most importantly, what will Chakotay do about it? Let's see.
You cold-hearted bastard.
Standing before
the admiral's desk in his Maquis leathers, Chakotay
came up with
a few other unflattering aphorisms for the senior Paris
he would have
liked to have voiced if the current situation weren't
so delicate.
"Your resignation
is unacceptable Commander." Admiral Paris said
coolly as
he pushed the PADD back across the length of the desk to
him.
"I think you're forgetting the benefits of a career in
Starfleet
entails."
"I haven't forgotten anything Admiral. That's why I'm resigning."
As the old
bastard when on to expound the benefits he'd be missing,
Chakotay studied
him clinically.
His only son
was missing, he had to know that by now and he was
acting as
if nothing was wrong. Fleet Security must have drawn the
same conclusions
and have the same information his team had acquired
and yet he
hadn't been questioned. Nobody had approached him as to
why Tom had
been in his quarters or the circumstances of his
departure.
That should have happened.
It was standard
operating procedure. As the last person to see Tom,
Chakotay should
be locked up somewhere being grilled but he wasn't.
Nobody seemed
to care. Not even the admiral who was in the same room
with him,
had asked after his missing son.
It enraged
him and under normal circumstances, he would have flung
the old man
against the far wall of his office and let him know how
much with
his fist. However these were not normal circumstances.
Chakotay needed
to be free. It was up to him and his friends to find
the missing
pilot and he couldn't do that from a cell in Starfleet
Security.
So as much as would like to tell the admiral how special
his son was
and what he was missing with a good right cross, he
remained mute.
He had come to do this one last thing and that was
it.
He would not let his anger jeopardize their plans.
"Admiral,"
Chakotay said with forced calm interrupting the diatribe
he hadn't
been listening to. "I didn't come here for your
acceptance.
I handed you my resignation in person as a courtesy,
nothing more.
Whether you accept it or not, is not my concern. I'm
done and after
my debriefing, I'll be going home."
"Do you think
it will be that easy to leave Commander? That you can
just say thanks
for everything but I'll be going now? Turn your
back on us
and go? I assure you it won't be."
"What the hell
are you talking about? Why is it so damn important
that I stay?"
"Do you know
how it will look in the press, Commander? The
conquering
hero comes home, only to defect?"
"So this is
all about appearances? How my leaving will make
Starfleet
look bad?"
"The Fleet
is everything. Nothing can be allowed to tarnish her.
However if
it was up to me, I'd personally walk your perverted ass to
your shuttle
home myself."
So he did know
about his relationship with Tom or had surmised as
much.
There was no way he could know the nature of it. Not that
it mattered
to this callous son of bitch. His homophobic mind had
automatically
thought what he was doing with his son was sordid and
therefore
wrong. He cared little that Tom might have found
happiness
and love, if indeed that's what had happened between them.
Chakotay was
a man and that repulsed him enough to give him an excuse
to ignore
his son's feelings and it probably wasn't the first time.
He suspected
that during Tom's upbringing his father had a come up
with lot of
excuses.
Not bothering
to answer the admiral's unspoken challenge, Chakotay
turned on
his heel and left his office.
He more important things to do, like dinner on the Enterprise.
********
Can't fight, can't give in, can't let this happen.
The only thing
Tom Paris could think was can't. Can't, can't,
can't.
The word ricocheted off the walls of his mind as Lutan stood
hovering over
him.
His anus was
sore where the big man had inserted one thick finger
then two but
he'd been dealing with that, not well but he had. It
had been when
the painful intrusion had stopped, his brain had
started to
overload. He knew what was next. The fingers weren't
going to be
enough. Lutan was only stretching, preparing him for
something
much, much worse. His prediction was confirmed when to
his horror
the dark alien started to strip.
Off came the
long black robe to reveal a smooth broad chest, dotted
with two dark
nipples and strong arms of which mettle Tom in his
struggles
had already tested. But that ladies and gents wasn't the
worse part
of the show. That came when the black and gold filigree
pants dropped
to the floor.
The dark member
that fell from the silken folds was obscene and a
monster in
its own right. It was only semi-erect and still it was
size and girth
of his forearm. Tom's mind screamed in silent
panic.
It would kill him. If Lutan stuck that outrageous thing up
his butt,
it would scramble his insides and kill him. No longer was
Tom afraid
of rape, it seemed almost a minor concern now. He was
afraid of
dying.
"I, I can't." He pleaded to the tall alien. "I'm not built right."
"Oh my princeling
you can and you will." Lutan was fondling himself
lazily, his
eyelids falling to half-mast. "In time you will beg me
for this."
Oh man was
this guy fucking nuts? Couldn't he see that he was
smaller?
Didn't he feel that when he had his fingers up his ass?
What a moron.
What did Lutan think he was, a bloody size queen? Tom
was going
from panic into hysteria.
Death by dick,
oh fuck what a thing to have on your death
certificate.
He giggled. The EMH would get a kick out of that
one.
Harry could say his eulogy, mentioning how he always wished to
be fucked
to death and Chakotay, oh shit, Chakotay. Tom bit down on
his tongue
to stifle the next round of giggles. He had to get his
shit together
here. He had to take control. It was time to snap
out it and
get to work.
The first order
of business was to keep Lutan's cock away from his
ass, to disable
it somehow, take it out of commission. He couldn't
do that with
brute force, Lutan would catch his fist and crush it
before it
even he even got near his genitals but he could do it
another way.
All he had to do is remind himself this wasn't rape,
it definitely
wasn't sex, it was only a job, only a job, only a job.
With a new
mantra looping through his brain, Tom righted himself and
sat back against
the bulkhead. Lutan watched him curiously as he
parted his
knees and lifted the loincloth to expose his own cock. It
was flaccid
but the dark alien's mouth smiled in approval anyway. He
began pumping
it, willing it to life.
"I want to see you come." Tom said his voice low and husky.
"See?"
"Yeah, you
sit over there and I'll sit here." He said squeezing
himself, pulling
the skin up on his hardening dick. "We'll watch
each other."
"I prefer to
touch." Lutan made his point by caressing the
underside
of his chin. Tom steeled himself not to move away in
repulsion.
"You sure?"
Tom gripped the edge of the bed with his toes and
arched his
back. He moaned low in throat as his growing erection
moved up through
the circle of his fingers. "Oh come'on Lutan." He
purred.
"I can put on one hell of a show."
Closing his
eyes Tom continued moving and moaning. Letting his body
rise and fall
as he fucked his hand. He was tempted to think of
Chakotay's
mouth wrapped around him but banished the thought. This
place and
what he was doing was not fit for his beautiful lover. He
thought only
of the reactions his stroking was creating, the tingling
in his inner
thighs, and the tightening of his balls and focused on
them.
Even Lutan's threatening bulk was vanishing from his mind.
"Oh yes my princeling. You do that well." His captor growled.
Tom peeked
an eye open to see that Lutan had retreated to the
opposite bunk
and was splayed there knees apart pumping his massive
erection with
both hands. Drops of pre-cum the size and colour of
peas were
seeping from its ebony head. Tom shuddered at the sight
of the sour
looking issue and almost lost his erection. He shut
his eyes tight,
not caring about his earlier offer to watch and
prayed for
Lutan to come soon.
"The other hand princeling, use the other hand."
To do what?
"Your mouth, in your mouth." Lutan panted.
Oh.
Bringing his
hand up, Tom curled his index finger into his mouth and
began gliding
it slowly in and out. By the dark man's accelerated
grunting he
guessed he was doing it right. After a moment of
listening
the guttural animalistic cries, he shut them out. He
fucked his
hand harder and increased his own moans of pleasure to
block out
the unwelcome sounds of the other man's passion.
Despite his
fear and anger Tom realized he was very close to
orgasm.
His balls were almost painfully tight and his stomach
muscles were
beginning to flutter. His mind might know he was being
coerced to
do this but his body was reacting as if everything was A-
okay.
It knew what it liked and Tom was giving it.
"Come my princeling,
come for me!" Lutan roared. Tom didn't open
his eyes for
verification but he guessed from the urgency in his
voice the
dark man was climaxing. Good, now he could get this over
with.
Removing his
saliva slick finger from his mouth, he ran his hand down
over his chest.
Still whacking the fuck out of his dick, Tom
clutched at
his pecs and scraped his nails over his nipples. The
extra stimulation
did the trick and his cock erupted in a fountain.
With two fingers
formed in an `O' he stroked with short quick jerks
just under
the crest to milk himself dry.
Sweating like
a pig and smelling like one too, Tom let his hand fall
from his lap
and fell side ways on to the bunk. He bit his bottom
lip and licked
at it with his tongue until his body found its
plateau.
When he could breathe without his chest hitching, he
chanced a
look at Lutan so see how he was faring.
Lying listless
on the matching bunk, the dark man had adopted Tom's
pose with
one exception, one glorious wonderful exception.
He was out cold.
********
"I'm pleased you can join us for dinner Commander."
"I'm pleased
Starfleet Command let me." Chakotay responded to the
overly formal
captain.
"Yes well that
took some doing." Picard motioned him to a seat
beside his
first officer William T Riker. Chakotay smiled briefly
at his friend.
"It seems you've
ruffled some feathers Commander." Picard was
smiling as
if amused. "I had to remind the brass that it was more
than appropriate
for the Fleet's flagship to hold a dinner for its
decorated
heroes."
Admiral Paris
strikes again, he thought as he got comfortable.
However showing
more graciousness than the admiral deserved, Chakotay
refrained
from mentioning that to Picard. He probably knew anyway.
"I apologize
for any trouble I've caused you Captain and am very
grateful for
your assistance."
"Just evening
the score Commander." Picard replied from his end of
the table.
Chakotay was well aware they were no longer talking
about the
meal that was set before them.
As she had
planned, Kathryn had approached the Enterprise captain and
had laid everything
out for him. She pulled no punches reasoning
that if the
man was going to put his ass in the fire, he deserved to
know why his
short hairs were frying. However it hadn't been the
lure of trading
war stories that had interested Picard but Chakotay's
heritage.
Years ago Picard
had been involved in trying to relocate the settlers
on Dorvan
V. He had been only following orders, and the treaties of
the new Cardassian
agreement but that had meant little to him when he
discovered
his duties conflicted with his personal convictions. Not
one to follow
orders blindly he had reevaluated the situation and had
changed the
agreement to better suit the Indian enclave.
Chakotay knew
his people held no ill will against Picard but the
stringently
moral man still had wealth of regrets regarding his
involvement.
That had been their foot in the door.
"So is everybody here who's coming?" The honorable captain asked.
Chakotay looked
around the table. From his seat beside Picard the
guest list
starting to his left were, his friend Wil Riker, the
exotic dark
beauty and ship's counselor Deanna Troi, Kathryn at the
other head
of the table, around to Enterprise's chief engineer Geordi
LaForge, good
old Harry, Seven who was only here to meet Commander
Data, who
was noticeably absent and back around again to the other
head with
Picard. It was an eclectic if not cozy group.
"I think that's it Jean Luc." Kathryn replied with a wide smile.
"Very well
then." Picard smiled back at her and then slapped the
communicator
on his chest. "Picard to Bridge."
"Data here
Captain." Came the reply and the answer to the
commander's
whereabouts.
"Engage."
********
Who knew Ligonians were light sleepers?
Tom, back in
his bunk once again and restrained by the force blanket,
rubbed the
bald spot on the back of his head that was testament to
the fact that
the natives to Ligon II were indeed not heavy sleepers.
Positive that
a man with a cock that big would have to pass out cold
after coming
just from the loss of fluids that monster ejaculated
alone not
to mention how much blood it must have taken to fuel it, he
had attempted
to make his way to the small ship's conn. Tom had
gotten half
way there when Lutan had grabbed him by the hair and
thrown him
back on the bunk.
The good news
was his escape attempt seemed to dampen the dark man's
libido and
his honour such as it was, was still intact, the bad news
was they had
just entered Ligon II airspace.
********
"Data has a
lock on the ion trail and were following it now. He
figures we
should be able to catch up with whomever has Lieutenant
Paris and
overtake them within the hour."
"Hmm."
"Chakotay are you listening to me?"
"Yes I'll have Tom back in an hour. I heard you Wil."
Chakotay turned
to his old friend with an apologetic smile. He'd
been thinking
about Tom and had let himself drift away in pleasant
memories.
It must have been the two glasses of real Bordeaux Picard
served from
his private stash at dinner or possibly the beer Wil had
broken out
when they returned to his first officer quarters to catch
up.
His slight intoxication was making him feeling a little moony.
"He's important to you, isn't he?"
He shifted
on the couch and turned to the man Picard called `Number
One'.
"Of course,
Tom's was part of Voyager's crew. We were stuck for
seven years
in an unexplored section of the galaxy all alone. We had
to bond together
to get through it. Actually we're more family than
crewmates.
He's important to all of us, Wil."
"No, no, no.
I mean to you," Wil poked his chest. "Chakotay, the
man."
"Yes but that's a little newer."
"You're kidding right? I mean you and a guy? As in sex?"
"Is that so surprising."
"Frankly yes."
Wil slapped his thigh, sloshing his beer on his
uniform.
Chakotay guessed he wasn't the only feeling a little
tipsy.
"Damn! You and a guy! Shit, I wish I would have
known
that fifteen
years ago."
"And you would have done what?" He challenged.
His old friend
grinned at him broadly. "I would have seduced my
teacher."
"I didn't sleep with students Wil, you know that. Male or female."
"We were friends
too. How many times did we get drunk and then whine
about not
getting any?"
"Since you got `it' all the time, not often."
"You're missing
the point. What would you have done if one night
after we ended
up back your place, I made a move on you?"
"Flunked you."
"Not fucked?"
"No flunked.
I wasn't interested in men back then Wil. I told you
this was new."
"Oh I thought
we were just talking about Tom. That you just started
dating."
"No."
"Oh god Chakotay, he's your first."
"And we haven't been on a date."
"So you're
just fucking him then." Wil laughed. "Doing the
admiral's
son. Hell Chakotay when you start something, you start at
the top."
"No is not like that. It was just one night and I didn't, you know,"
"Penetrate him anally." Wil finished for him. "What did you do?"
It wasn't really
anybody's business what had transpired between he
and Tom.
He didn't kiss and tell. However Wil was a good friend and
he did need
to talk about what he was feeling. It was still so new
for him and
Wil who was bi-sexual might help to sort out all the wild
emotions he'd
been having lately. He took a large gulp of his beer.
"I gave him head."
"Did you swallow?"
The question was asked sincerely. Wil seemed
to understand
his need to talk and had stopped his friendly by-play.
"No, I wanted
to but he wouldn't let me. He said he wanted us to
come together
the first time."
"And you couldn't
do that with his dick in your mouth? Didn't you
have a free
hand?"
"Well no.
He was standing in front of me and I had to hold his hips
or he'd have
choked me."
"Yeah that
takes a little practice." Wil said thoughtfully. "So
what happened
next? You said he wanted to have simultaneous orgasms
and you didn't
fuck him. Did he top you?"
"Top?"
"Fuck you. Did Tom fuck you?"
"No we just
pressed against each other." Chakotay paused to
remember unaware
he was smiling. "And spirits Wil he was beautiful."
"Yeah he's cute. I've seen pictures."
"He's more
than cute and that's not what I meant." His mouth had
gone dry so
he took another sip of beer before continuing. "When he
came, when
he came on me, it was incredible. The way he moved, the
warmth of
him on my stomach, oh god I can't even begin to describe
how that made
me feel."
"Pretty good I'm guessing. You came watching him, didn't you?"
"Yes."
"So when did you realize you were in love with him?"
"What? Love? We're talking about sex."
"Oh no my friend
if we were only talking about sex, you would have
just fucked
him plain and simple. You wouldn't have tried to suck
him off the
first time out and you wouldn't have been blown away
watching him
have an orgasm. You did all that because he means
something
to you."
"Bullshit.
It was all so new, I was experimenting and it was more
than I expected
that's all." Even as the words came out, Chakotay
knew they
were a lie.
"Yeah you can
tell you self that but tell me this. How many times
have you thought
about him since then? Have you even
considered
`experimenting' with anyone else?"
"I'm not answering that."
"Uh-huh, you
love him. You know I don't even think you're really
into men.
It's just a matter of the right person coming along, in
this case
a guy and you fell head over heels. I think if Tom Paris
was a woman,
you'd still be in love with him."
Chakotay considered
that and remembered the tightness in his chest
when he read
`yours always' on Tom's note.
"Oh spirits,
Wil. I'm in love with Tom Paris." He said a little
desperately.
"That's what I'm saying."
"But I've known him for years. Why didn't it happen sooner?"
"I don't know.
He must have done something to make you think of him
romantically."
"He did." Chakotay brought his hand to his lips.
"What?"
"He kissed me goodbye."
TBC