The Burning Truth
Author: Kim Riley a.k.a. MYSTIC
Pairings: (DS9/Voy) C/P, B/m
Notes: Sequel to In the Light of
Day and part XII of the Dark Desire
WARNING: Those of you who find any
unusual reference to their
religious fate easily offended,
I apologize, and please remember this
is a story…no offense was meant.
Disclaimer: Ok, as usual, none of
these characters, besides Nolan
Osgood, belong to me, they belong
to Paramount, and again I'm getting
them out of the `closet' to let
them be happy.
Please!!!!!!!!! Pretty please?
The Burning Truth
just stood there dazed and dumbfounded, not able to
process just what happened. Cain
was here and all was well with the
universe, and then Cain took Tom
and vanished, leaving no trace on
any level as to where they went.
Cain had kidnapped Tom to lure
Chakotay after Vladimere…but why?
did Cain do it? Once again Julian realized that he was
out classed and out matched in this
dark game, and that's when it hit
him…it was a game, and he was merely
a pawn, not a Prince, but a mere
title to be used and abused. He
was masterfully manipulated and…now
what? Did he play a
long? Did he really have any other choice?
Cain was right, Chakotay would find
a way to pull out of the black
fire he was suffering for Tom, but
could he face him or Nolan and
admit how much the fool he has been?
Better yet, how could he not,
Tom's life was hanging in the balance,
and he still loved him, a part
of him always would.
thought about it and realized that it had become his
Achilles heel…first his loneliness
for it, then Tom and
Chakotay. //Chakotay,// he thought.
Yes, he didn't really know him,
but his spirit touched Julian's
in the same unique way Tom's did, and
yes, he did love the other man.
//Tom and Chakotay are destined for
each other…what have I done?// he
thought, as the pain of reality
came crashing in. Cain would
use Chakotay's love for Tom to draw him
out and lead him to Vladimere, where
he again would use the young
pilot against Chakotay leaving him
mind roared as his hands came up
and covered the pain in his
face. //Fool! Fool!// his mind chided
at himself as he dropped to his
knees. Those he cared about were
now going to pay for his mistake,
and there was nothing he could do
taking some time to gather his strength and his
courage, he exited the room the
normal way and took the lift, needing
the extra time to gather his thoughts.
He had to tell Nolan and
Chakotay everything and then pray
for the best, but the problem with
prayers was, just who would be listening?
he was in the ready room of the Veil and the next thing
he knew he was bound and gagged
and laying on stone of what appeared
to be an ancient castle. Next to
him was Cain, and then he looked
around as best he could and saw
a medium built light skinned dark
haired man, with a goatee, sitting
on what could not be mistaken for
anything but a thrown. He was dressed
in a silver white satin shirt
and matching pants, with black boots
that matched his dark hair. Tom
didn't need to be told who this
was, the man's very presents smelled
of evil, this was the infamous Dracula!
Cain, what brings you to my door?" Vladimere asked
nonchalantly, his feet up on the
side of his thrown chair, as he
drank deeply of the dark red liquid
that couldn't pass for wine, that
the Vamir used, it was blood. "Don't
tell my your hear to rant and
rave over your puppet's death?"
blue eyes narrowed, "Had you actually managed to do
him any harm, I would do more than
rant and rave, as you say," he
smirked darkly. Seeing Vladimere
sit up straight to his news and he
continued. "I'm not too found of
being blown to bits, but it wouldn't
be the first time," he smirks some
yes, I took my treasures place while he got…help," Cain,
smiled darkly. "Nolan is here, Vladimere
and he has his sword of
justice with him. I just thought
I would let you know."
reached out his mind, sure enough, Nolan and
other's were present…many others.
He kept his concern concealed as he
met Cain's gaze, "So, he has arrived.
I can deal with him," he
you? Well, in that case you won't need what I brought
you," he smiles and gave a bow making
ready to depart.
game is this that you play, Cain?" Vladimere asked, for
he too understood the way of the
dark world they lived in.
turned cold and serious. "I want Nolan, and he and I
against each other are a formidable
match, but with the one called
Chakotay, it would turn the tide
of things in his favor. I have no
interest in the Alpha quadrant and
so…" he turns and looks at the
blond by his feet. "This one is
known as Tom, and Chakotay happens to…
love him. Use him well, and you
can defeat the one who 'will' come
for you. But let me warn you, harm
this one, and you will lose,
Vladimere, and I do not wish that
to occur. Nolan has a weak spot for
this Chakotay…keep him busy and
then defeat him, and when Nolan feels
his death, it will give me the opportunity
to strike a vengeance long
since over due. Good enough of a
plan for you?"
stood up and moved down the stairs taking in Cain
and then the blond on the floor,
"He is rather fetching isn't he,"
Vladimere said, leering at the young
can chose to ignore my warnings, Vladimere, but if you
want to win this battle keep this
one safe…till after the battle. You
don't want to fuel the one in which
prophecy has empowered the right
to defeat you…do you?"
squatted down next to Tom and caressed the fair
skin, chuckling at the quiver his
touch caused in the young male,
knowing it wasn't lust that was
the cause. "Perhaps after this is
done, this fine creature and your
pretty puppet would make a fine…"
had suddenly grabbed up Vladimere by the collar, lifting
the man off his feet. "Hear me,
Vladimere. I have given you the key
to your victory, but touch my treasure
and as I have sworn, I will
become the bane of your existence,"
he spat, his fangs in full
view. "And please, stop thinking
that I 'have' to return to sleep. It
has been by choice, nothing else,
so I am quite capable of stalking
your every step," he added and then
dropped him. "Julian is mine!
What you do with this one, 'once'
this is over, is your business.
Now, I have things to do as I am
sure you do too," Cain growled.
straightened up his shirt and stepped back to his
chair and retook his seat. "Very
well, Cain. You will have your
revenge and I will have my quadrant…sound
or less," Cain replied coldly. Then he turned to Tom
and picked him up, seeing fear now
in the blue eyes. He wiped some
hair from his face and gave a dark
grin, "I suggest you behave
yourself, if you want to live through
this," he said. //Keep your
eyes open to truths and do not believe
all you see and you may unlock
the key to Vladimere's defense,//
he thought toward Tom about the
same time, then dropped the young
man unceremoniously on the
ground. "Vladimere," he said and
looked around and felt afraid, but Cain's mental thought
gave him hope where before he was
sure he, Chakotay, and Julian were
being betrayed, but now, he wasn't
so sure of anything. If this was
a way for him to help Chakotay get
the goods inside of Vladimere's
place, why was he kidnapped? //Perhaps
he said that so I wouldn't
give too much of a fight,// Tom
was startled out of his thoughts when from out of the
shadows from the area of the thrown
came a small boy the age of ten
or so. The boy was well dressed,
with dark hair and a fair complexion
much like Vladimere's but his features
were all wrong, so there was
no relation that he could see. Then
he noticed that the poor boy had
bite marks on his arms, and Tom
shivered. They boy may have been well
kept, but at first glance, the boy
was just a walking food bank.
moment later several other men entered the room and
grabbed him up and held him as Vladimere
was once again in his face.
Tom shivered at the cold touch this…thing
do possess a quaint beauty," Vladimere smiled with a bit
of a leer in his eyes. "It would
be interesting to see…" He stopped
and looked at Tom some more. "Are
you bonded to you Chakotay or
at first didn't respond, but a hard slap in the face
helped him along. He shook his head
no as he glared at Vladimere.
Then he almost missed it for it
was subtle, Vladimere had looked over
at the boy, the boy nodded once
and the quick action was over. Then
Vladimere was grinning at him again.
wonder what your Chakotay would do if he arrived to find
you fighting on my side," he smirked
shook his head harshly indicating no!
I think in three days you'll change your mind,"
Vladimere replied, then gestured
for the men to take him to the
realized that Vladimere planned on blood bonding him, but
Tom knew he was safe from this,
since he was bonded to Julian. The
thought of his first love and his
friend brought him concern, but
there was nothing he could do about
much of anything. He was tossed
into a dungeon that had strange
markings on it, and left to his own
stilled himself outside the doorway, watching Nolan cradle
Chakotay's body, and was filled
with a mixture of emotions. He was
angry at himself for his stupidity,
and Nolan and the universe for
being so lonely that lead him to
being weak and allowing Cain to take
advantage of him. He was also jealous,
envious, of Tom and Chakotay.
He felt their love for each other
and he longed for such love
himself, foolishly believing in
Cain. Then there was Nolan himself,
the one who seduced him, brought
him over, guided him in this mass
game, were he thought he played
a valued piece, to discover he was
the lowest of the low…a pawn.
// his mind reminded him, and he braved forward. He
moved silently till he was close
enough to kneel down and rest a hand
on Chakotay's blood soaked brow.
He leaned in, not caring what Nolan
thought of him at the moment and
gave Chakotay's sweet lips a gentle
kiss. Then he leaned in toward his
ear, "Tom's in trouble, Cha…you
have to save him."
words made Chakotay stir, but only a little bit. Julian
laid his hand on Chakotay's forehead,
" Tom is in danger, Chakotay!
You are the only one who can save
are you talking about?" Nolan snapped.
has fallen into Vladimere's hands," Julian states
coolly, his eyes never leaving Chakotay's
He was here…"
eyes grow wide, "What did you say?"
Cain took him to Vladimere."
Julian could see was that his words were reaching
Chakotay as his eyes started to
move, though he could sense Nolan's
anger, and knew he would strike
at him…he no longer cared.
there was a strong hand over his throat, sending
pain throughout his body, and Julian
closed his eyes to the pain, but
not making a sound. "Cain? What
does he have to do with this? How is
it he is involved in the first place?
Answer me!" Nolan growled.
woke him to kill me, but he didn't. It seems he
has other plans," Julian replied
as best as he could. "He took Tom a
few minutes ago, there still maybe
Chakotay's voice though weak broke the angry tension
in the room.
Nolan dropped Julian and was by
his side, "Love, are you all right?"
"Who has Tom?"
"Don't worry about that, you are
"Vladimere has him. Though I'm sure
he's being used at bate to lure
you there. He's all right, that
much I can tell you for a fact,
though scared, but physically all
"How do you…" Chakotay was weak.
"The bond," Julian replied as he
moved back next to Chakotay. Seeing
the pain in his dark eyes, "He loves
you, Chakotay, with all his
soul. Our bond is nothing to what
you two share. Don't let pride
stand in the way of such a rare
thing as true love."
"I need to save him…" Chakotay croaked
"Yes, but first you need your streanght
back, " Julian says softly.
"He is in no condition to face him,"
Nolan snarled as he stood
up. "I'll deal with…"
Julian's eyes sparked with fury,
"You'll have your hands full with
"Cain wouldn't have the guts…"
"To show up?" Cain replied right
behind Nolan. "Come, Nolan. Let's
leave the children to play, we have
much bigger game to folly," he
smirked and vanished, never looking
Nolan glares at Julian, "I will
deal with you later. He is in your
charge. Anything happens to him…"
"I won't let it," Julian states
in a solemn vow.
When Nolan vanishes, Julian moves
to cradle Chakotay up in his
lap. "You need to get to Tom, and
there is only one way for you to
regain your strength fast enough.
Though to be honest I don't know
were Vladimere has him?"
"I can find, Tom," Chakotay states,
a tiny smile on his face.
"I bet you can, " Julian smiles
slightly in return. Then growing
serous, "Accept what is and move
forward with your heart," he says
softly. "I hope you don't mind,"
he states as he leans in and give
Chakotay another soft kiss, "But
the two of you have come to mean an
awful lot to me." Then he
blinks back his emotions and pulls up his
sleeve, "take what you must," he
states and he takes a tiny dagger
and cuts himself deeply and let's
the blood drip into Chakotay's
"Don't fight it," he states, as
Chakotay tries to deny his hunger,
not wanting to hurt Julian. "Tom
needs you," he states even softer,
and places his wrist in Chakotay's
mouth. He winces when Chakotay's
instincts take over and sink his
teeth into his skin. Then he lets
the feeling's fill him, allowing
himself to float away on them,
letting his loneliness be a thing
of the past along with his pain…to
be greeted by darkness and nothing.
is it you want, Cain?" Nolan demanded as he appeared in
the midst of a dark grove somewhere
on Earth at a late hour.
how about a chat before the real fireworks begin," Cain
replied with a sinister smile, as
he sat comfortably on a park bench,
illuminated by a single street lamp
don't plan on wasting time…"
time," Cain growled menacingly. Then he eased his
temper, "You may have plans, which
is all well and good, but you
don't know all you have started,
Nolan. But I do, and I would be more
than delighted in telling you, should
you care to know, that is?"
are you rambling on about?" Nolan sneered his thin
layer of patience showing.
recall my story, don't you? How long ago, when I was
truly a young and innocent boy that
looked like a man, the
commandment of the powers of One
came down from the heavens. The
command was simple, or so I thought.
Sacrifice that which you love
most to me in my name."
know your story, Cain," Nolan retorted in a tight
you? Perhaps, but listen anyway, you may learn
something," he retorted smugly.
"As I was saying, the command sounded
simple enough, but it wasn't. For
as you know I loved my brother Able
more than life itself, and to me
it was all too clear. I recall
standing at the alter after he had
finished with his offering,
looking at him with awe and sadness
and joy. For as much as I knew I
would miss him, I knew he would
be going to a better place. I feared
that he might suffer, and so, when
the ashes of the alter had
subsided, I moved and placed a hand
on his shoulder. He turned and at
that moment when our eyes met, he
saw in my soul what was going to
happen. As my eyes registered his
fear, my hand moved fast and I
struck true to his heart…his eyes
looked at me then in disbelief as I
laid him down on the alter. I told
him I loved him and as life faded
from his body I placed a loving
kiss on his forehead. I knelt at the
alter, tears down my face, again
a mixture of sadness and joy…that is
till the sound of thunder rang through
me and the valley around me. "
yeah, God or the One was angry and condemned you, I
know all that. I know about how
the angels came to you later asking
you to ask for forgiveness and you
thinking you did no wrong said no,
and in return for you arrogance
and defiance, you were cursed by all
twelve of them, I know all this.
I was in the darkness where we met,
yes, I remember quite well. Of course, you used another
form, female, and called yourself
Lilith…knowing I was too…schooled
to respond to your true form. You
offered me a way for revenge and I
took it, not knowing how it would
link us for all eternity."
people were dying, and you were the perfect choice…I
didn't lie to you about anything
except my real gender and name. You
chose of your own accord, so don't
go blaming me…"
I? Did I really choose all on my own? I wonder, because
I think anyone with any offer at
that time in my life would have been
accepted, and I think you knew that!"
this pretense up, Cain. I made an offer, you accepted
it, this is old new and nothing
new," Nolan growled as he folded his
arms around his chest, looking seriously
annoyed, his shoulders tense
and ready to begin a physical confrontation
Cain said, shifting slightly on the bench, with a
calmness settling upon him.
were thirteen angles not twelve," Cain replied
I know, in the darkness, but that's why you only saw
twelve and not the last one, for
he did not come to me in darkness,
even though I was cursed to it forever,
or so I thought. No, Noland,
he came to me in the light of salvation
and gave me words that have
forever lingered in the back of
my mind, and not till recently have
they made any sense."
looked at Cain with deadly suspicion, "And what was
stood slowly, "In time, the One will forgive and you
will be ready to ask for that forgiveness.
For to know God is to know
Love and to know Love is to know
God, for one can not exist without
the other, in this you will find
the path to salvation."
raised a brow, "And what does that have to do with me?"
laughed hardily at Nolan, "I guess…nothing," he smirked.
Then he got deadly serious, "I know
what you're up to Nolan and I
won't allow it."
looked at Cain as if he was nothing more than an absurd
child, "Won't allow it? Since when
do I need your permission or
acceptance for anything I do? You
can no more take me than I you, for
we were created at the same time,
remember. I was in the darkness,
but you…you made me real as I made
you real…in essence we are one."
we are not! Our existence maybe, but we…we are not one!
But I tell you now, Nolan, that
it has been through your own hand
that has brought your undoing,"
Cain stated with a cold sense of
enlighten me oh wise one," Nolan with sarcasm.
be glad too," Cain replied with a menacing smirk and
swifter than wind he moved and grabbed
Nolan, sending a powerful wave
of thought in the other's direction,
and the reality around them both
began to shift…
paced by the young Prince's bed side, filled with
guilt and concern. "Will he be all
right?" he asked looking at
Rebecca, who was wiping a small
cool cloth over the now pale golden
as surprising as it seems, he will be," she replied
could have…if you didn't come when you did…"
you told me yourself, and I know it to be true, he
offered and you were in no condition
to resist. So, please, stop…"
can't stop feeling guilty. I…" Chakotay stopped his pacing
and looked once more at the angelic
face of Julian Bashir. Before,
knowing the madness of the Black
fire, he had been willing to die
then be used by Nolan or hurt Tom
or anyone again. But when he heard
that his Tom was in danger it brought
him back from the edge, but he
was far too weak to do more. Than
Julian shared his blood with him,
and now…now he was stronger, and
as strange as it seemed, he felt
more himself than he did since all
this began. He felt he had full
control of his life and his mind.
He knew Tom would be okay, for he
was bait and Chakotay would play
along, but first he needed to make
sure Julian was okay…for it mattered
very much to him now…now that he
was back to being himself in spirit.
"He saved me in more than one
way," he replied softly.
stood up from the bed and crossed to her friend's
side and hugged him, "I can see
that," she whispered, "And for that I
know many will be grateful."
you," Chakotay replied, hugging her in return. Then he
released her. "If he is going to
be fine, I then must go and find
Tom. I…I can sense him, but I know
I will not be able to reach him
directly, I'll have to use," he
grinned, "normal methods."
smiled, "Are you sure you have to go alone?"
saw her concern, "I'm not alone, Becky, I have Tom
and Julian, in here," he replied
pointing to his chest. Then his eyes
grew solemn, "take care of them
placed a finger on his lips, "I won't make such a
promise, for you `will' be here
to do so yourself," she said, though
in her eyes she did promise him
to look after those he loved.
only nodded, then, "Give me a moment, and then I'll
be going." He watched as one of
his newest and dearest friends left
the room and then he sat down next
to the unconscious Prince. He let
his fingers softly caress dark curls
from Julian's forehead, "I love
Tom with all my being, but there
is something about you…something
special…" he said, expressing his
heart, but not understanding it. "I
was so jealous of you at first,
but now…I see how Tom can still love
you and be truthful with me as well,
its just something that can't be
helped," he chucked softly, and
with a tad of sorrow. "I'm not sure
what's going to happen, but I know
you'll look after Tom if things go
bad, and knowing this give me more
streanght than I think I would
otherwise have, and for that…and
for other things, I am grateful," he
replied and then leaned in and kissed
Julian's soft lips with a
stood up and moved to the door, looking back at the
sleeping man, feeling so drawn to
him and so connected, but in a much
different way than he was drawn
to Tom. Tom was his love, his mate
and his destined; Julian…he felt
like his light, his soul…his life.
There was no time for further pondering,
he had to go and he exited.
He was going to Earth, back to where
it all started in the legends so
had shifted and soon Nolan found himself looking
through hazed eyes at memories of
the past, as if he was more of an
observer than someone present. Once
he got his baring, he was more
than able to pull himself out of
this situation, but curiosity more
than anything else was what kept
him here. "Where are we?" he
demanded of Cain.
in on a past that you may find interesting," Cain
replied softly, for he as was Nolan
were nothing more at the moment
than thought, as they looked at
scenes of long ago pass before their
eyes. "From you knowledge does that
figure on the cross seem…
thought for a moment, "Sort of, why? What does this…"
watch and listen, and you will understand," Cain
replied, no hostility in his voice
for once. "The figure is a man
that in some history existed and
in others he didn't. He is called
Jesus the son of God or the One…ring
any bells now?"
listen. We are witnessing his death on the cross, a
famous part of his legend, and an
event that truly took place, but
more importantly as far as you and
I are concerned are the three
women at his feet, who have traveled
far and wide to morn his loss."
view altered, so Nolan could see three woman, dressed in
dark clothes, covered head to toe,
kneeling, weeping as the one known
as Jesus hung from a cross, dying.
"Okay, you peeked my interest…go
smile could be heard in Cain's voice, "Soon, the guards
will determine once and for all
that the man is dead," he said as a
Roman solder moved as if being instructed
by Cain's words. The guard
stepped around the three women as
if they were not even there, and
rammed his spear into the man's
side piercing through his chest, then
pulling back his spear, startled
by the sudden arrival of a
tremendous storm, dashed away in
three women wailed in sincere sorrow, not realizing how
they were gathered around the Lord
Jesus' feet. A drop of blood from
the Lord's right hand dripped down
and fell on the head of the one
below, as did a drop of blood from
the Lord's left hand fall on the
one below it, as did a drop of blood
from the Lord's heart drop on
the head of the one in the center.
Their tears stopped the moment the
drops touched them and absorbed
into them, taking away their sorrow.
the scene altered once more and Nolan got a good look at
the man on the cross, and it suddenly
hit him, he looked like Tom
with a beard! But it was more than
that; he had Chakotay's build,
skin color, calm streanght, and
as he looked deeper he saw…Julian's
eyes and soul, one of purity, able
to be touched by darkness and
raised back into the light.
Nolan snapped, and soon found himself and Cain
back where they were, in the park.
it?" Cain asked softly, pleased that what he had to do
was done, for the moment.
you telling me that those three are some how…
related….connected…" Nolan didn't
know how to phrase it.
not telling you anything, Nolan. I just showed you
something I thought you would find
interesting, I know I did," he
replied. //time to change the subject
slightly, // he thought, "Did
you know that Julian isn't bounded
was started by this comment, "What?" he asked irritated
by the sudden change.
first I thought you a fool for not bonding Julian, but
I've come to see that was not the
case…he's simple not bonded to you…
or me for that matter, not that
he knows it."
looked really annoyed, "That's not possible, the blood
bond lasts and I made sure that
he had what it took to keep…" he let
it slip that he was able to reach
Julian during his time supposedly
alone in the Alpha quadrant. //Oh,
well, as if it matters.// he
thought coldly. "It's not
really," Cain smirked knowingly, "I bonded him myself,
and was so very surprised when it
didn't take. Oh, it seemed at first
it did, but it didn't stay that
way, no…after a few days, he was not
bonded to me, accept through his
own will. Strangely, he doesn't even
know it's by his doing that we are
connected, and not mine…don't you
eyes narrowed, "What are you playing at? What you are
suggesting is impossible!"
rose from the bench once more, "Is it? No more possible
than you bringing together the three
parts of one whole…by pure
coincidence? Or is it perhaps possible
that there are forces older
than you and I at work here, Nolan.
If that's the case, you've
already lost, and I `will' know
my peace at last."
wouldn't count on it," Nolan snapped. "Once Vladimere is
dead, I will have his power and
his hold to this plane of existence
and will no longer need Julian or
that mouse…Tom! What you do is your
business, Cain. You can no more
appose me than I you, but we can
exist much easier if you stay out
of my way and I yours."
glared at Nolan, "I strongly recommend that you leave
Tom and Julian alone, or Chakotay
will suffer, for I know you have a
soft spot for him."
sneered, "We'll see," he replied, and then took his
leave and vanished.
sat back down on the bench, and after a moment his cocky
and confident attitude was washed
away as he sagged and placed his
face into his hands. //Am I doing
the right thing? // he whispered in
he heart, not for the first time
since all this became clear to him
when he bonded with Julian.
He looked up and into the heavens, his
age and tired soul clear in his
eyes, "Please, I have begged for your
forgiveness often, but now I beg,
please…help me do the right thing?
I have finally come to understand
that to sacrifice what one love's
most is not to bring it harm but
to give of ones self to prevent it,
but…you know what I must do…so please…please…the
gift of Julian's
love and knowing love truly is my
treasure, I place it all in your
hands, keep him safe, since I can
not, not in the way I wish and
still do what must be done…please
care for him…and all of them…amen,"
Cain replied as tear rolled down
his face…real tears.
TBC in: The Kiss of Death – The
(And yes the last part…yeah!)