It took a lot for me to admit my real feelings. I felt so vulnerable. Chakotay pulled me into his arms and held me close. In his arms I felt loved, protected.
"Tom I 'do' love you. I know I could have died today. It made me realize life is too damn short to not go for what we really want. Tom, will you marry me?"
I was scared shitless of the idea of marrying Chakotay; I was even more scared of losing him. So I said yes. I hope that circumstances are different this time. I can't lose again.