Title: Owed to Chakotay Author: Thomas Jesse Fournier Feedback: Gratefully accepted at jessefournier@home.com Rating: PG-13, 'cause it's about a romantic relationship between two men and you don't like that idea then go away!!! Part: 1/1 Codes: C/P Summary: Don't want to tell!! ;-) Warnings: Read this crap at your own risk!!! This is my first attempt at writing slash. I was inspired when I heard the song Hungry Eyes on the radio, the next thing I know I am typing like a mad man. :-) Beta'd: No, but I hope it's not too bad. All mistakes are mine. Disclaimer: The characters in this story belong to Paramount. Which belongs to Viacom. I am just borrowing them for some fun, I promise to return them with big smiles on their faces. ;-) And the song Hungry Eyes belongs to Eric Carmen. Or at least he sang it. Dedication: To all you talented writers in the ATPS, and the TPDorm, I have really enjoyed all your stories. Hope you's like this one. ------------------------------------------------------------- Owed To Chakotay By Thomas Jesse Fournier 04/14/2001 It had been yet another long day at the helm. The Voyager had been travelling through yet another boring part of space. All day long I sat there thinking of how to tell Chakotay about how I really felt about him, hopefully without getting hit or worse rejected. I've been meaning to tell you I've got this feeling that won't subside I look at you and I fantasize That you're mine tonight Finally what had seemed like the longest day, ever, was over. I handed the helm over to Batehart and high tailed it off of the bridge as fast as my feet feet would carry me, leaving Harry with a stunned expression. I practically ran to my quarters, stripped, jumped in the shower, and contemplated what to do about supper. After my shower I dressed in sweats and a t-shirt. I checked how many replicater credits I had left, none. So I cursed my fate and made my way to the mess hall. I went in and grabbed something pink and not too scary looking. I then scoped out the room and saw Harry sitting at our usual table so I went to join him and tried to eat. Of course he tried to question me about my hasty exit from the bridge that day. I told him that I had something on my mind. He looked like he wanted to question me further but I gave him a, don't bug me now, look. Halfway through my meal I heard the mess hall doors swoosh open. I looked up and I saw Chakotay enter the mess hall. My appetite just flung itself out of the nearest airlock. Oh well I didn't want to eat something pink anyway. Harry was watching me watching Chakotay and figured something was up. Now I've got you in my sights With these hungry eyes One look at you and I can't disguise That I've got hungry eyes I feel the magic between you and I I had loved Chakotay for so long. I just had to do something, I couldn't pine away for him any longer. It was like there was no one else in the room as long as Cha was there. I wondered if he felt the same? Did he ever notice me always looking at him with my hungry eyes? I just had to tell him how I felt. I had to take the chance. But how? I had never felt this way for another man before. I thought I was in love with B'Elanna. We dated a few months and found that we just didn't have enough in common, at least not enough to base a relationship upon. So I worked up my courage and walked over to where Chakotay was sitting. I asked him if he had plans for later. He answered no. So I took the plunge and asked him out, he looked so surprised, but said yes. I was ecstatic. We agreed to meet at Sandrines later. I want to hold you So hear me out I want to show you What love's all about Darling tonight I went back to my quarters paced back and forth, and thought, "Now what do I do?" I was more nervous than a long tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs. I rummaged through my closet wondering what the hell to wear. I settled for my tight black jeans that screamed "Fuck me!!" and the blue silk shirt that everyone always said looked good with my eyes. The time came for me to meet Chakotay at Sandrine's. I just stood there at the entrance to the holodeck looking like an idiot. "Come on Tom you can do it." I thought to myself. Finally I went in and looked around and spotted Chakotay over at a table in the corner and walked over. I marvelled at how georgous he looked that night. He was wearing a burgundy silk shirt and black dress slacks. I sat down across from him and we made awkward small talk at first. Now I've got you in my sights With these hungry eyes One look at you and I can't disguise That I've got hungry eyes I feel the magic between you and I I've got hungry eyes Now I've got you in my sights With my hungry eyes Now did I take you by surprise? Chakotay told me that he was surprised that I asked him out. He thought that I was straight. I responded that I thought I was 'till I realized my deep feelings for him. Which left me feeling shy not knowing what to say next. Chakotay replied that he had always harbored secret feelings for me. I was so surprised. Because I thought he hated me. He replied that it was a conveniant cover to hide his true feelings. He told me all about the short affair that he had with Captain Janeway while stranded on that planet together, and how it ended when rescue came. I told him about my attempt at a relationship with B'Elanna. He said he knew all along that she and I wouldn't work out. That surprised me. We talked about how others would react to us as a couple. I told him I didn't care about what others thought, but I cared about how it would reflect on him. We both knew that the former Maquis might pose a problem. We discussed whether or not we wanted a family, and jokingly argued who would get pregnant. I need you see This love was meant to be We talked for a little longer. But it soon became clear that we wanted to go back to one of our quarters and become better aquainted. So I asked the age old question, "My quarters or yours?" And we decided on Cha's quarters. His first kisses took my breath away. Oh Cha!! Oh god, that first touch lit my skin on fire. It was so good I pleaded with him to never stop. I never knew that it could feel that intense with another man. Or mayby it was just Chakotay, 'cause I couldn't picture myself feeling this way about Batehart or Dalby or even Harry. I just knew from that moment on, no matter what happened, I would never feel the same about anyone ever again. I've got hungry eyes One look at you and I can't disguise That I've got hungry eyes I feel the magic between you and I I've got hungry eyes Now I've got you in my sights With my hungry eyes Now did I take you by surprise? With my hungry eyes I need you Hungry eyes Now it's six months later and we are married. I never dreamed I could ever be this happy. I love you Chakotay. The End