Summary:
In answer to Isa's challenge on Jupiter Station. Less
than 36 hours
after Voyager's return to the Alpha quadrant, Tom
vanishes.
Why? Was he alone? Does anybody know anything about
it?
Most importantly, what will Chakotay do about it? Let's see.
Please, please, please answer the door.
Chakotay was
on his second round of pleases when the panels slid
open.
He looked up from his communion to see a deity worth praying
for, his husband.
Tom stood motionless
in the doorway, neither inviting him nor sending
him away.
His eyes were wide. Chakotay could see more white than
blue in the
precious orbs and his mouth, his beautiful sensuous mouth
was an uneven
line, the pink lips trembling as if caught between a
smile and
a frown.
"Can I come in?" He hoped.
Nodding, Tom
moved to the side of the door to allow him entrance.
As Chakotay
passed him he caught a whiff of soap and something
musky.
Cologne?
The room was
dimly lit, the brightest glow coming from the stars
through the
view port and soft music was playing, something with
strings, Chakotay
didn't recognize the artist. It was romantic, sort
of like a
`yours always' but with atmosphere.
"Chak." Tom said his voice but a hush behind him.
Chakotay turned,
glad the younger man was speaking first because now
that he was
finally here, he didn't know quite what to say or how to
start.
"I need to
tell you something." Tom said as he walked up to him, his
blue silk
outfit rustling like rice paper. Chakotay in his
nervousness
found himself concentrating on the cut of the simple
tunic and
flowing line of the loose trousers, anything to avoid the
intensity
of the younger man's eyes. It stripped him bare right down
to his soul.
"Chak, look at me. Please."
He lifted his head. "I am."
"I need to
tell you why I kissed you in the closet. You remember
that night
don't you?"
"Yes."
It was the night he'd discovered what he'd been looking for
all his life.
Yes, oh yes he remembered.
"All I had want to do was say thank you but then I panicked."
"Why?"
"Because I
thought I was never going to see you again and it scared
me.
The same thing happened on Ligon II, except I reacted a little
more strongly
that time." Tom licked his lips. "Do you understand
Chak?"
Did he?
He wasn't sure. Was this a confession or an explanation?
Was Tom telling
him he loved him or saying he found comfort in him
when he was
frightened? In honesty he would take either, anything to
have this
beautiful man back in his arms but he too was afraid. Not
of looking
the fool, not anymore, his ego had fled the minute he'd
walked over
the threshold but of what he would say. Chakotay didn't
think he could
hold Tom again without telling him he loved him. If
the younger
man didn't return his feelings, would that scare him
enough to
find comfort in another?
"What do you
want from me?" Chakotay asked needing more
clarification.
"A chance."
Tom said succinctly. "I don't understand what's going
between you
and Riker. I know he's your friend but," Tom took a
deep breath
before continuing. "All I want is a chance to compete.
A chance to
show you how good it can be between us. You don't have
to keep me
as your husband and you don't even have to love me back.
Just let me
stay with you."
"You love me?"
Chakotay was pretty sure he'd heard that in the
jumble of
words that fell from that exquisite mouth.
Tom nodded
and replied softly "Yeah, for just about forever." He
continued
in an explosive rush. "But I won't push it on you. I
don't expect
you to fall for me after one fuck. I know this is real
life and not
a fairy tale. I just.-"
But this was
a fairy tale, Chakotay thought as stepped closer to his
now babbling
husband. It had to be. Where else would the commoner
win the affections
of the handsome young prince?
Tom was still
explaining, making excuses but Chakotay tuned them
out.
It was time for the happily ever after to begin.
"I love you too Tom Paris."
Framing Tom's
face with his hands, Chakotay tilted his head to the
left and kissed
him deeply. For a moment he felt the mouth under his
fight to continue
speaking and then a whoosh of warm air rushed down
his throat
and into his lungs. Tom had stopped the fight and was
kissing him
back.
The familiar
and much missed caress of the younger man's lips against
his welcomed
him home and the moist tongue, tasting and sliding along
his made him
want to stay.
Chakotay ran
his hands down Tom's shoulders to his hands and brought
them around
to the small of his back. He needed to feel his
husband's
hard body pressed into his, to feel its heat and rising
passion.
Upon contact, his lover's hands pulled at him roughly,
roamed up
and down his back and kneaded his buttocks. As always the
urgency of
Tom's desire made his knees weak and now knowing it was
born of love,
it also made him dizzy. He couldn't do this standing
up.
Chakotay pulled back from the sweet lips.
"We have to lie down." He panted.
"Yes.
I need you on your back." Tom growled as he began walking him
backwards
not letting go of his ass.
As they moved,
something crunched. Chakotay stopped to look down and
saw the rug
was covered with glittering orbs. Were they walking on
stars?
Tom saw his confused gaze.
"I had a fight
with the coffee table. It lost big time." He smiled
brightly with
a triumph Chakotay didn't understand and then began
pushing him
backwards again. He dismissed the table and let him. He
had greater
mysteries to explore.
Kissing and
tripping over each other's feet they made their way to
the bedroom.
********
He was going to make love to Chakotay.
The older man
didn't know it yet, but he was about to be claimed and
fucked to
the edge of ecstasy and beyond by his husband, Tom Paris.
All the things
he'd told Harry about how wonderful it felt to be
taken by someone
you love, he was going to make Chakotay feel. That
was of course
if he didn't come in the man's mouth before then.
They'd barely
been naked a minute before Chakotay pushed him back on
the bed and
dove for his groin. Placing his forearm across his lower
belly to keep
him still, he had begun sucking away at his cock like
there was
no tomorrow.
With a determination
Tom understood, that dark head bobbed up and
down.
Chakotay wanted to swallow his come. He been denied before
and was not
about to be again. That assumption was confirmed when
he felt a
finger push into his ass. Oh fuck, his husband may be new
at this but
he learned fast.
"Chak stop!" He screamed as his toes started to curl.
Chakotay lifted
his head. "No, not this time." He said all the
while continuing
to finger fuck his butt. "I want to taste you Tom
Paris."
His voice was so low, and so deep, it gave Tom chills.
"Please, I
promise tomorrow you can wake me up that way but not
tonight.
I do want to come inside of you but not in your mouth." He
pleaded almost
dissuaded by the heat of his husband's smoldering
desire.
The thrusting
finger stopped and despite his plans, Tom whimpered and
his cock wept.
"Are you saying you want to fuck me?"
"Yeah babe, I want to make love to you."
Chakotay removed
his finger but still held him firm across his hips
with his arm.
As his handsome face screwed up in contemplation, his
free hand
cupped his balls and rolled them around in his palm like
worry beads.
It felt good, too good. Tom's hips were starting to
rise up from
the mattress on their own accord. Shit, if Chakotay
thought like
this much longer his request was going to be a mute
point.
So to hasten his husband's decision, Tom gave him something
else to think
about.
"That's how
I'd like to consummate our marriage." Tom said knowing
Chakotay would
be unable to refuse him now. It was dirty pool but
shit, all
was fair in love in war and this was all about love, wasn't
it?
"I think I'd like to try that Tom." A sly grin formed. "Next time."
In a flash,
Tom once again engulfed by Chakotay's hot mouth. He
exhaled sharply.
He had not expected to be refused. Nobody denied
his wishes
in bed. But then again the man who was devouring his cock
was not anybody,
he was his husband yes, but he was also a seasoned
officer and
a man of the world.
Chakotay may
love him but he could not be toyed with and bent easily
to his will
with a few well-placed words. The big man had more
honour and
respect for himself than that. And as tight lips pulled
at his shaft,
Tom remembered that's why he fell in love with him and
let himself
go. He could wait for next time.
Tom found that
if he pushed his butt into the mattress, despite the
iron band
across his hips, he could dart up a little into the wet
heat of Chakotay's
mouth. He attempted a few experimental thrusts
and when his
husband didn't choke, increased his pace to match his
bobs.
It felt incredible. Why the hell had he'd been fighting this?
"Oh god Chak,
that's good, oh fuck babe, oh fuck, oh fuck," And with
a few more
jabs into that wonderful moistness, Tom granted his
husband's
wish and came.
As his seed
spurted out of him, he was dimly aware that Chakotay was
struggling.
He heard gagging sounds and then cool air on his gushing
penis.
Tom used his own hand to pull out the rest of his orgasm and
when he felt
Chakotay's head rest on his hip, he used his other to
pet at his
soft hair. Tom was not disappointed the man couldn't
swallow all
of his load and gave him brownie points for a good first
try.
"Come up here Chak." Tom cooed.
"I didn't know
it would tickle." Chakotay remarked lightly once he
was in his
arms. Tom was glad to hear his voice was free of
embarrassment.
He didn't want their love making to be awkward.
"Yeah, but you did good babe, real good."
"Next time
I'll do better." Chakotay grinned and then kissed him,
swirling his
tongue around his mouth, its saltiness letting Tom know
he did catch
some, if not all of his issue.
"I love you Chakotay." Tom said when the kiss broke.
"Good because I'm ready to let you show me."
"Now?
Give me a couple of minutes to catch my breath and I'll be all
over that
gorgeous bronze body of yours."
"What happened to the vigor of the young?" His husband teased.
"I'm thirty six Chak, not eighteen."
"And I've still got an erection."
"What does that have to do with anything?"
"Nothing.
Just something to keep in mind." Chakotay poked him with
said erection.
Tom laughed and hugged him tight.
"Oh god, I married a sex fiend."
"No, you married
a man who finds you incredibly sexy, and loves you
very, very
much."
Chakotay kissed
him and then threw a leg over him. Now Tom could
really feel
his erection. It was drawing wet circles into his hip.
His husband
was horny and begging to be taken. The thought alone
made his cock
twitch with renewed life.
"Hold that thought."
Tom jumped
from the bed, belaying his earlier plea of old age and
headed for
replicator.
********
"What is that?" Chakotay propped himself up on his elbows.
"Risan pleasure
oil." Tom walked across the bed on his knees
carrying the
dark green bottle carefully with both hands.
"What does it do?"
"Do? You mean what's it for." Tom sat back on his heels.
"No, do.
I have a pretty good idea what it's used for." Chakotay
ran a finger
the length of the erection jutting up between Tom's
thighs.
His excitement level climbed when husband actually purred at
the light
touch. "What I want to know is, does it heat up or smell
like lavender?"
"Nope, did you want something like that?"
"No I like
the way you smell, I don't want it mixed with anything
else."
"Oh sorry about the musk then."
"That's okay,
I got over it." Chakotay made a mental note to ask
the younger
man later why he had been wearing cologne at all `and'
why he'd been
dressed to kill when he shown up. But right now he had
other more
pressing things on his mind.
"Are you nervous
babe?" Tom asked as he poured some of the clear oil
into his hand.
"No."
And he was surprised to find he wasn't. He was about to be
invaded in
a way that not long ago would have left him cold but now
as he watched
his husband spread the clear gel over his cock, he was
anything but
cold. He was sweating and burning in anticipation.
"Okay here's
the deal." Tom slicked his hands and then placed the
green bottle
on the nightstand. "I know you know how this works
because you've
done it to me, but it'll be different for you because
it's your
first time. There might be some pain, it will pass but if
it gets to
be too much, tell me."
"I will."
Chakotay smiled at his husband's overly clinical tone.
It would have
gone over too if not for the fact Tom's hands were
shaking.
"I mean it
Chak. I won't be offended or hurt. You know, I think I'd
be more hurt
if you didn't tell me, okay?"
"Okay Tom enough with the pep talk. Now fuck me."
The younger man's eyes squeezed shut a moment.
"Oh shit Chak,
don't talk to me that way. It's going be hard enough
for me to
hang on just being inside of you."
"You really
want this don't you?" It thrilled Chakotay his husband
wanted him
so badly he didn't trust himself with any extra
stimulation.
"Yesss." Tom hissed as he moved between his opened legs.
Chakotay reached
up for him and pulled him in for a kiss. The
younger man's
lips were trembling, as were the finely toned arms that
tented over
him. The long lean body hovered over him just beyond
reach as the
kisses turned fervent and needy. Needing to feel his
lover, Chakotay
arched up into him, pressing his throbbing erection
into his groin
searching for surcease. Tom moaned at the contact and
pulled back.
"I'd, oh fuck,
I'd say were both ready." He said between gulping
breaths.
"More than. Please Tom now." Chakotay breathed back.
"Okay, okay,
okay." Tom repeated with his chin pressed to his chest
obviously
trying to get a hold of his rocketing passion. Chakotay
stroked the
side of his face tenderly as he waited for him to calm
down.
Eventually
Tom's breathing evened, it was still shallow but it had
stopped catching,
and causing his words to hiccup. He smiled down
into Chakotay's
face.
"You know I'm
usually better than this." He joked. "Oh god, now's
who's acting
like a virgin."
"You're doing
good Tom, real good." Chakotay soothed using words the
younger man
had used on him earlier. The amusement he saw in Tom's
indigo eyes
told him he remembered.
"Yeah well, enough of that."
Settling down
on one elbow, Tom ran an oil slicked hand down his
belly while
bending his head forward to take a hard nipple into his
mouth.
This time it was Chakotay's whose breath hitched.
He didn't know
what sensation to concentrate on first. The teasing
mouth that
was licking and sucking at his chest or the warm hand that
had ghosted
over his cock, embraced his sac briefly and was now
tracing circles
around his anus. It all felt so wonderful.
Thankfully
Tom made the decision for him.
"Kiss me babe." Tom demanded.
Yes, yes he
could do that, he thought in his growing euphoria.
Chakotay opened
his mouth to Tom's and as the younger man's tongue
darted into
his mouth, a digit slipped into his anus. It hurt, and
he felt his
erection deflate but Tom covered the pain with his
kisses.
Chakotay relaxed into the lips that were now traveling the
length of
his neck.
When a second
finger joined the first and began moving, Tom's tongue
was tracing
his ear.
"That's it
babe, just relax, let me inside." He whispered as his
fingers went
deeper.
The gentle
intrusion was losing its sting. He'd supposed because his
body was becoming
used to it and it was becoming close to pleasant,
even his lost
erection was reacting favourably and becoming firm
again.
Like a massage or relieving an itch, it tingled and left him
with a warm
foggy feeling. He closed his eyes and let his knees fall
further apart.
"Oh fuck you're
beautiful." Tom was now not only pumping with his
arm, but with
his hips too. "Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful." He
chanted into
the side of his neck.
Chakotay felt
like he like he was dreaming, tethered to reality only
by the sound
of his husband's voice and touch. There was no pain,
only pleasing
sensation. He wondered why Tom had screamed like a
banshee when
he had been inside of him. This was a feeling to moan
to, not holler
or yell or, or.oh spirits!
A bolt of pure
ecstasy shot through his body causing his back to
arch.
Liquid and hot it seethed up his spine to the roots of his
hair and back
down again to centre on a place just above his tailbone
deep within
him. It came again, and again in waves and his passive
moans turn
into cries of urgent need. He reached up and grabbed his
husband by
the scruff of the neck.
"Tom!" It was a vow, a question and a plea for more.
"I know, I
know." He said with a sympathetic smile and then removed
his fingers.
In a haze of
arousal, Chakotay watched him reposition himself between
his legs.
He reached to the side and took a pillow from the head of
the bed.
"I'm going
to place this under your hips so I'll be able to penetrate
you easier,
okay?"
"Yes, hurry."
Chakotay clutched at the bed sheets, lifted his body
and Tom slipped
the pillow beneath him. He noticed that in the wake
of his tumultuous
arousal, his husband had gained back some of his
control.
His pale body was flushed and sweating but it was no
longer shaking.
Chakotay fell back against the bed, closed his eyes
and waited
for the rapture to return.
Soon he felt
the head of Tom's cock nuzzling his now stretched anus.
After a few
moments of exploration it pierced him. Again there was
pain but no
greater than last time. He supposed it would have been
worse if Tom's
fingers had not done their preparatory dance.
"Okay now Chak, push against me as if trying to expel me."
Chakotay opened
his eyes. "But I want you." He said a little
desperately.
"Please baby."
Tom was starting to tremble again. "Please, I want
to move and
this will make it easier for both of us. Oh god baby
please, please
just do it."
He didn't see
the logic in his husband's request but he could see the
desire in
his eyes. Trusting his husband's superior experience, he
bore down
and waited for Tom to fill him but nothing happened. Tom
didn't move,
didn't thrust, nothing. Frustrated Chakotay stopped
straining
and as if by some signal, Tom shot forward burying his cock
in ass to
the hilt.
"Yes!" They screamed together.
Oh spirits,
now he understood and that understanding ran even deeper
as Tom began
sliding in and out of him in long sure strokes. The
ecstasy had
returned with a vengeance. However it no long washed
over him waves,
rising and receding but piled upon itself, building
higher and
higher.
"You okay babe?" Tom breathed over him.
"Yes."
"Alright I'm going to start moving now."
Start?
Oh spirits, didn't the younger man know he was already?
Chakotay snuck
a peek at him to see that Tom's eyes were shut
painfully
tight and his stomach muscles were rippling with
uncontrolled
reflex. Tom was so far gone, he hadn't realized he had
started thrusting
the moment he had entered him. Chakotay gave his
assent anyway.
"Oh yeah!" Tom cried and really started moving.
As the Tom
frantically pumped his passion into him, Chakotay fell
back into
a rapture made so much sweeter by the knowledge that he was
bringing the
same amount of pleasure to the man he loved.
"Oh god, oh
god, I can't, I'm going to, oh god, oh god!" His ever
vocal husband
announced.
Chakotay was
surprised he heard him at all as his own building orgasm
was rapidly
making him blind and deaf. His beating heart pounded
loudly in
his ears and all he could see were stars. When he felt a
hand on his
almost forgotten cock, his senses left him completely.
Like he was
convulsing, his body went rigid as his muscles contracted
and his eyes
rolled back in their sockets. Tom screamed louder and
rammed his
cock faster into his climaxing form.
Chakotay rode
out his orgasm as Tom rode him. Both were magnificent
glories and
when they started to quiet, sensuous cradles of languid
warmth.
In a boneless
heap Tom fell on top of him, cocooning him with his
long arms
and legs. Cooling sweat and semen squished between their
bodies creating
a vacuum, sealing them together in a bond of love and
spent desire.
With effort
Chakotay brought his arms around his limp husband's waist
and kissed
small thank yous into his damp temple. Tom didn't stir
at the gentle
touch. The man was out cold, sleeping deeply.
Chakotay laughed
softly accepting that for the rest of the night, he
would have
a six foot blond for a blanket.
Any questions
he might have and any decisions, and there were some
big ones ahead,
would have to wait for tomorrow. For tonight was
going to forget
all of his troubles, the admiral included and sleep
peacefully
in his new husband's arms.
TBC