Summary: Tom
and Chakotay get caught with their hands on each other
and are forced
to become a not so happy couple.
Wet.
Rising up from
a pleasant place of green forests and blue skies,
Tom's drifting
consciousness wondered what he'd stuck in fingers in.
It was sticky
too. He snuggled deeper into the warmth beside him and
explored further.
Hard, then coarse.
Tom threaded
his fingers through the wiry strands. It was hair, his
foggy mind
concluded. He moved his palm downwards and encountered an
obstruction.
As he followed up a vee like slope with his fingertips,
he heard a
small noise. Ah, an obstruction with sound effects.
More wet.
Must be the
source of the pool. Funny, he didn't remember seeing any
hairy fountains
here. His mind hiccupped. Oh shit, that's because
there weren't
any. He wasn't on the beautiful planet of his dreams.
He was in
bed with the beautiful man of his dreams.
Chakotay had
been there too, buck-naked and mauling him but that had
been the fiction.
This was the reality. While he came closer to the
waking world,
Tom kept his eyes closed and continued to play gently
with what
he now realized was the slippery tip of Chakotay's penis
and not a
trickling fountain.
What to do?
Last night
he'd apologized and rolled over but all that had gotten
him was forgiveness
and a bad case of blue balls. Tom considered
where his
hand was. If he wanted to Chakotay, who must think he was
still asleep
could pull his hand away but he wasn't. He was
motionless
beside him making small noises of what, pleasure? Was the
big man getting
off on this? Enjoying the midnight walk his hand was
taking? Tom
curled his fingers, slid his hand down the other man's
shaft experimentally
and Chakotay moaned a little louder. Oh yeah,
he was. Tom
got excited.
If ever there
was a latinum opportunity to be taken this had to be
it. He had
the chance to make love to Chakotay instead of being
fucked by
him.
If Chakotay
thought he was sleepwalking or fucking or whatever maybe
he wouldn't
try to wake him. Tom had heard it was dangerous somehow
to do that
and hopefully the big man had too. If he did, that meant
if he wanted
to, he could make slow torturous love to him and
Chakotay wouldn't
stop him. Nor would he blame him afterwards. Tom
would literally
get off scott free. Oh this was just too good, too
easy and all
he had to remember to do was keep his eyes closed. Tom
leaned in
for the kill.
Imagining their
dusk rosy hue in his mind, he took one of Chakotay's
nipples in
his mouth. Like the sweating erection in his hand, it was
already rock
hard. As he sucked and tugged at the sweet little nub
gently with
his lips, he felt the big man's breath hitch under his
mouth. Oh
yeah, Chakotay was liking this big time.
Now that he
had the top half of his husband covered, Tom concentrated
on the lower
half.
Chakotay's
cock was leaking an excess amount of what Tom suddenly
considered
very useful fluid. He gathered what he could from the
convenient
pool on his flat belly, coated his fingers and then headed
south for
unfamiliar territory.
Sliding his
greased fingers down over a set of heavy balls that
matched the
thick cock above them well, Tom iced Chakotay's puckered
opening with
his own pre-come.
Because Chakotay
was often the more dominate one in their frantic
couplings,
Tom often didn't get much chance to touch this part of
him. And when
he did, it was usually with a stolen lick as he sucked
him off. Touching
this special area now was a rare treat. Tom
mumbled his
gratitude into his husband's smooth chest as he slipped a
finger into
his velvet passage.
"Oh Poocuh."
Chakotay moaned, obviously no longer worried about
waking him
and although he wanted to, Tom didn't respond. He would
not take the
chance of breaking the spell that was enveloping them
both.
Licking the
salty sweat from Chakotay's torso and still making sure
he kept his
eyes shut, he slid his finger in deeper. It was so
smooth and
so tantalizingly warm Tom could not help adding another
digit. He
was pleased in a way he'd never been before when Chakotay
parted his
legs for him and bore down a little on his invading
fingers. He
mouthed the words `I love you' into the big man's chest
as began to
make love to his ass and his leg.
Striving for
friction, Tom rubbed his own weeping erection into
Chakotay's
upper thigh as it pressed between his legs. He wished
fervently
that his turgid member was where his fingers were but was
unsure of
how far he could push this charade. Could he mount
Chakotay in
his supposed dream state? Would the big man go for
that? Would
he even want it even if he did believe it?
Tom could count
on one hand how many times he had penetrated
Chakotay.
Almost one for every year they'd been together and each
time it had
been brutal and from behind. He had never lain between
his legs and
pumped his love slowly into him as he so desperately
wanted to
now. Because of the combative nature of their relationship
and his most
often submissive role in it, he'd never had the
opportunity.
Chakotay growled
and clamped down on his fingers when Tom found his
sweet spot.
It was that hint of his most beloved tiger that decided
it for Tom.
He withdrew his fingers and gathered more of his
husband's
pre-come from his belly to coat his dick. He tried to make
the move look
lazy and undeliberate and not unlike the actions of a
dreaming man.
Using only touch, he positioned himself on top on
Chakotay.
In a surprise
move, Chakotay embraced his waist with his legs. Tom
quickly hung
his head down between his arms so the big man would not
see his startled
eyes open. Taking advantage of his unexpected sight
and the angle
of his head, Tom aimed his cock towards it target. A
few pearly
drops from its tip dripped down on to his husband's
opening lubricating
it further. That was good because this little
used orifice
was going to be tight.
Without much
fuss, he had done this before with others, Tom got his
cock in the
right place and pushed. After breaking past the tight
rings of his
anus, he eased into his husband's body. Chakotay's
growls became
louder as he increased his depth and when he shot home,
the big man
actually roared. If he'd really been asleep, he'd be
awake by now.
Chakotay was a visceral and noisy lover. Hiding a
chuckle, Tom
began thrusting.
Taking his
time, slowly and gently he moved within his husband's
ass. He closed
his eyes again so he could lean forward and pepper
Chakotay's
neck and shoulders with light kisses. He didn't dare kiss
his mouth
for fear of going face to face with him.
If he touched
his lips, Tom would have to open his eyes to see his
expression
and if Chakotay looked back in response, the jig would be
up. He couldn't
risk that now while he was finally taking the big
man the way
he had yearned for years. This was too precious and he
was too close
to lose this now. His balls hitched up tight under the
base of his
cock. Oh yeah, way too close.
"Poocuh!" Chakotay
screamed into his ear and like a mystical word,
the magic
started to happen.
Arching up
into him, Chakotay began meeting his thrusts. They were
quick and
urgent but somehow not hard or brutal. Even the big man's
hands as they
bit into his butt were not cruel. They were simply
strong, just
as both their desires were. Tom relished the subtle
differences
as his seed passed from him into his orgasming husband.
Chakotay had
begun filling the space between their bodies with his
come the moment
he had shouted the mysterious word Poocuh.
"Oh spirits
Tommy." Chakotay whispered as he pulled him to his chest
and kissed
his hickey. Tom's body was shaking from his release.
Chakotay had
to know he was awake now. He waited silently with his
face tucked
into his husband's shoulder waiting for the hammer to
fall.
"Tell me you
wanted that to happen." Chakotay said to the top of his
head. "Please
Tommy, tell me." There was no anger in his voice, but
something
that sounded an awful lot like fear.
"I, I did."
Tom stammered coming clean. He'd been ready for
reprisal not
reverence. Chakotay's guilt was not something he
expected.
"Did you?"
He brought his head up by the chin. "With me?" Those
gorgeous brown
eyes asked.
With who else, Tom's confused mind asked back.
"I was awake
Chak. I knew what I was doing." He said adamantly,
leaning up
on one elbow and staring as intently as he could at his
husband hoping
to get his point across.
"Yes, of course
you did." The big man said softly looking back at
him. There
was a hint of melancholy in his husband's eyes that Tom
didn't understand.
He'd been positive Chakotay had felt the magic.
Why would
he be sad? Tom asked his own question.
"Didn't you
want me to fuck you? I know I've never done that quite
that way before
and maybe you didn't really like it."
"I liked it
very much Tommy. Very much, thank you." Chakotay kissed
his mouth
softly and warmed him from his lips to toes, setting his
heart aflame
along the way but it didn't clear his head.
"Then why are you upset?"
"Because I shouldn't have let you do it."
"But you said you wanted me to. Shit Chak, I wanted me to."
"Yes but at
what point? When did you wake up realize who it was you
were touching?"
"Almost from the beginning."
"Almost?" Chakotay winced. Oh hell, there was the hurt look again.
"Well, yeah.
I was dreaming at first but then I woke up and faked
it. The dreaming
part I mean. There was nothing fake about the sex
Chakotay.
It was real and I wanted it."
Tom couldn't
believe this. Never in their three years together had
Chakotay doubted
his desire. He didn't understand it. His mind was
still reeling
when the big man got out of bed and went to the
bathroom.
In a few moments he returned with a washcloth and a towel.
Chakotay cleaned
him tenderly with the warm cloth and warmer kisses.
As he dried
him with the fluffy towel, Tom's weary mind and body
began to shut
down. By the time Chakotay got back into bed with him,
he didn't
have the strength to argue anymore, he did however make one
silent vow
to himself before drifting off.
Tomorrow night
at their wedding reception he would show the big man
just how much
he did want him and his pride be damn, maybe just maybe
he'd go one
step further.
He would tell Chakotay he loved him.
********
Last night
had been as wonderful as he had envisioned or at least as
his husband
had said `almost'.
Chakotay was
surprised that it wasn't the audacity of his actions he
was upset
about, but the fact that even though he had gotten what he
wanted, it
still hadn't been enough. He grabbed his jacket off the
bench in the
locker room.
This morning
he had escaped to his boxing program before Tom had
woken to blow
off a little steam. He would have preferred to do that
with the younger
man making love to him again but couldn't bring
himself to
ask him for it by way of words or actions. He couldn't go
through the
pain afterwards of knowing that it wasn't in fact not
even his to
ask for. That he wasn't the inspiration for all that
sensual wonderfulness
that was Tom when he made love or even now when
he fucked.
Tiger was.
When Tom was
asleep it had been for Tiger and when he'd woken, and
traversed
that faint line between love and sex, it still had been
Tiger who
had motivated him. Chakotay knew that because there had
been no change
in the younger man's eyes when he spoke of the two.
Tom could
lie with his mouth but never with his eyes.
What he'd done
last night was cheating and he'd gotten his just
desserts.
He had learnt more than he wanted to. Maybe the spirits
had truly
abandoned him after all. He still couldn't meditate and
they had refused
him the gift he wanted beyond everything, Tom's
love. Chakotay
laughed aloud.
He was in love with his husband.
Not just fallen
for his soft side or enamored by his beautiful body
but truly,
undeniably in love with all that Tom was. It mattered
little if
it was Tom Paris or Tom Chakotay that came to him because
together,
they were his husband, the man he loved. It was the whole
package that
drew him to his heart.
Whether his
tongue was delivering cutting jibes or soft sensual
licks, he
wanted him. It didn't matter if his pink mouth was curled
in a snarl
or a boyish grin. He still wanted to kiss it. Dark and
light, night
and day, up and down whatever. Chakotay wanted all of
Tom. The side
he'd known for years and the one he just met, he loved
them both
and didn't know what the hell to do about it. He zipped up
his jacket
and sat down on the bench to think.
Eliminate the
competition. Yes, that was good old Maquis thinking,
identify your
enemy, find his weakness and attack.
Finding out
exactly who this usurper of his husband's emotions was
the first
step to claiming them as his own but how did he go about
that? Asking
Tom? No, last time he asked the younger man he lied.
Harry? Would
Tom have told his best friend about his lover? Maybe
but there
wasn't much hope he'd tell him. Harry didn't trust him or
their marriage
enough to do that. B'Elanna? Oh spirits, B'Elanna.
They hadn't
spoken since he'd returned from the planet and announced
his marriage.
She avoided him and truth be known, he hadn't gone out
his way to
seek her out either.
Guilt, years
of it prevented him from approaching her. Although he'd
stayed away
from Tom during his time with her, it had been only
physical.
Chakotay knew full well that the connection between he and
Tom had not
been broken even when he was in her bed. And now that he
was married
to him well, the guilt had only intensified. Asking her
who Tiger
was besides being highly inappropriate was insulting. He
was `her'
Tiger.
Standing, Chakotay
determined that perhaps locating his elusive enemy
was not realistic.
Step two demanded he scope out his weakness but
he couldn't
do that he was unaware of who he was. So the next
logical step
was a show of force. To show all comers that he,
Chakotay was
the strong one and that he was ready and willing to
fight for
what was his. While showing Tom that his feelings were
sincere, it
also might be able to flush out the elusive Tiger. He
reasoned that
if someone encroached on his territory, he would make
known his
presence and hoped his competition would do the same.
Feeling decidedly
better about his situation, he proceeded to the
bridge.
Tonight at the party, the battle lines would be drawn.
TBC