Single Time, Forever
Disclaimer: Star Trek Voyager and all connected to it is not mine. Period, so they can sue someone else now. The song, "If only", is by Hanson...not exactly my favorite but... they had great lyrics for this..so...
Note: Very grammatically incorrect, which is kind of on purpose...not exactly a conventional writing style in this story.
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time I see you
I start to feel this way
He wanted her. Gods he wanted her. He wanted her to love him, wanted it for so long. That had happened. She had told him. She loved him, he loved her. Three longs years of joys, pains, love, and war. He loved her every little quirk. Her fiery eyes, her quick temper, her loving smile, the way she tugged at her lower lip. He loved her with all his heart and soul. And it scared the hell out of him.
me wonder if I'm ever
He knew he'd
never love anyone as much as her. He never wanted to lose her. Never. Yet,
out here, in hostile space...he could never tell when their next kiss would
be their last. It didn't matter to him, not enough to keep him from loving
her, every day in every way.
He sat there in his quarters, staring at the wall. He could see her, the way her eyes would light up. He could imagine the scene that would play out. If only he could muster the courage.
you, love you
He could never walk away. Ever. Whatever the alpha quadrant had it wouldn't take him away from her. Nothing could, nothing.
Then I hear
He was scared, not a natural emotion. It wasn't right, now. Not this late. She had cancelled their dinner date. She was busy, too busy for...this.
I had the guts to feel this way
Gods, he wanted to know! Wanted to have the answer. Wanted to go to her. But he couldn't, not now, not this way.
And if only
So many questions, so many fears. He needed her. Wanted her. Adored her. If only he could know she needed him, wanted him, adored him. Maybe he was just paranoid, maybe he was just a coward.
I sit here
But his heart was out on the table. Cards dealt. Fate was his. Yet he couldn't move. He couldn't screw this up. It had to be perfect. He would not mess this up. He couldn't afford it.
I think about is
She filled his mind and his senses. He was constantly reminded of her. Her smell was anywhere and everywhere. He could always see her face, feel her hands on his body. Setting his senses ablaze.
these lonely nights
Every night she wasn't there beside him, it tore his heart apart. Every night he lay alone, wondering what she was doing, what she was thinking. When he couldn't stop thinking about her. His mind would scream out, cry out to her soul. And feel unanswered.
you, love you
He wanted to
hold her every night. He never wanted to face the emptiness again. He never
wanted her to leave.
Then I hear
She's asleep, itís just too late. He'd just have to wait till a better time, later, When he was surer. When she was less busy. When things were normal. When it was right.
hear you say
Yet in his heart, he knew. It was right, or at least as right as he was going to get. It was now. But his brain wouldn't let him. He just needed to know! Know her feelings. Then he mentally smacked himself. She loved him. She had said it. And he needed to know. Tonight. He was ready.
He got up. He couldn't delay any longer. He had to do this. For himself, for her. For them. He went to her, still in Engineering. He bent down, looking at her shocked face. That dear face,
" Marry me." His voice came out hoarsh, though it was ridden with emotion.
She looked into his eyes, those clear blue eyes. And for once, despite whoever was standing there, watching this, she could see him. All the fences gone. She could see the love, the adoration, the need. Echoes of her.
" I love you B'Elanna. With all I can. I need to be with you forever, please." The last word came out soft, barely spoken. His words stirred emotions she didn't know she had. But in the moment she realized he was right, she could never be without him.
" Yes." She
didn't question, she didn't think. She only felt. And this felt right.